Joyce

2007-01-01T11:20:00.000-08:00

01/01/07--> New year start off le...hahaha...2006 has come to an end le! Has it been a good year or bad or wat? How do i put it? hmmm Starting of 2006 it was really a bad year cuz i graduate n i get in to endo which i cry nearly 2weeks den appeal to ward, mid of 2006 also not very good cuz went to ward as wish come true, thinking should be good but ppl there aren't nice n new sister step in things was very bad! and worse dear dear step in to army life! End 2006 mah?? things get better? i suppose not cuz training din really attend, friendship seems to be missing lots of ppl! as for work more ups n down!! Has a countdown party at dear hse...had some fun but ppl still prefer to gamble make mi so sianz but still thankz for coming!
So wat should i pray for 2007??
hahaha Can i havs lots of wish...hahaha too greedy le! I pray for bond to be over soon den can go poly, dear to end army soon or even more free time for mi, i can get into a team which i can row n excel...i dun wan to lose my passioN! I jus love dragonboat! I wish to hav back HI5...can i? Fat hope of mine i suppose...but i simply pray! Or can things be back to past where i enjoy so much of fun!! Hmmm pray for everyone to hav a smooth year ahead! Take care ppl!
I hav to go work le...tired yet got to force myself there! No choice, working life simply suxs... i wan to be back as student! PLss.. I jus love dear n my friends....muh muh!

2006-12-25T23:00:00.000-08:00

2006-12-07T18:30:00.000-08:00

Arrrr.......arrrrr......Nothing explain why on earth m i feeling like tis!!!!

Past Happy moments has since been come memories!

Memories Sure nv return to be e same!

Memories Has it been lost or kEpt??

Jus wat happen??

Haiz....wat is really happening...why ppl come in n left e foot steps! Lost for good! Things will nv be e same as before due to some reason!

Away from tis world of suffering

2006-12-06T14:57:00.000-08:00

Blog are rotting away...Busy and lazy to blog! Hmmm how life for mi mah?? Wat can i say?? Broke after spending alot n recently brought a camera! Yeah finally one of my long term wanting stuff been granted! But broke till like....haiz...
Ya also down with flu, cough n fever plus headache! Off two days to rest yet i been out e whole day haha...i jus can't stay at home! But thankz god dear is out to look after mi! Wonderful but feeling sux at all time due to sickness n went to see doc! Yet e med din cure mI! Now going on nite shift...tired n drowsy due to medicine yet got to concentrate for work!...siaNz...
Bless my fren, work n dear my lord! Pls...pray tat xmas hav off day wor!haha..

2006-11-27T23:35:00.000-08:00

Nurse?? Wat exactly is tis job abt! actually Realise been a nurse is not so easy...really not easy even though jus a assistant nurse! There is so Many things more to learn than wat is taught in school! Diff experience,diff situation, diff theory and education,diff care n love to provide to each patient! Really Not as simple as jus some daily routine duties,whereby u come do e work n once time up pass over n go back! Tat is wat i use to think but wat sis manjit say is true! Nursing is not jus abt doing blindly, each care given muz be e rite wan n e best wan! Wat u done for e patient really come from yr heart,not jus yr skills which now seems to play only a small part! To do something den do it all e best if not dun bother!! But sometimes u are really jus too busy n too tired to care so much!! Ppl n e surrounding, patient plays a part too! Perhaps i dun love my job tat much?? haha Is really a tough job, seeing yr love one been look after by others if e care is like shit how would u feel! Now i felt tat i m e most lousy nurse n really nid alot of improvement! Nid more TLC n read up more! MY thoery jus sux n i seems so stupid! Buck up JoYcE! U got to do somethings...been slacking too long le! Jia you! NIte nitE ppl!

2006-11-26T22:21:00.000-08:00

Spend sunday evening at hougang gym with siong ping, sebast n jixiang! Cuz dear got to book in early n actually suppose to meet jasmine, jaslin n evonne de yet...haiz...but did done some exercise there so not too bad! Den chat over a drink n dinner for them before go my aunt hse to eat! CUz long time nv spend time with my family le! So got to do some catch up! Had a good dinner! Save money LE hahaa! Hmmm in fact long time din go eat should go more often! Dear dun only acc yr family wat abt mine! hehee...
Anyway Jasmine better get well soon wor... dun jus spend yr time out will tired out den sick de! Catch back yr running nose wor! Ah mao too...get yr sexy voice back before go singing if not won't last de! Take care n drinks lots of water!!!
Lao shi logic-- Health 1st
-- Family 2nd
-- Studies 3rd
-- DB 4th!
So got to do something...free come AH be a patient(Touch wood) cuz nurse joyce is there! Wonderful care will be given de...hahha... **Jasmine i not fierce wor i m jus not gentle! hahhaa
Hao le tat all gtg rest....tml got journal club n meeting for some stupid stufff...haizz....missing dear!

2006-11-19T22:40:00.000-08:00

19/11...E day for my first TIME TRY for Vertical Marthon! Hmmm...first time trying to climb 73storeys n total of 1336steps! very excited till overslept cuz sleep late last nite due to tv programme haha...mi n dear pig too much den no choice meet ah mao n jasmine to take cab down together...hahah Saw many experts there with big muscles n nice body...cOOl!! Handsome mah...din really saw anyone haha..at there ppl warming up, do stretching while mi, ah mao, jasmine n xinyi slacking there wondering how long will we take to finish it! haha...see how well we prepare mah! Also took some pic for memories cuz is our first marthon together lo! At e starting point ah mao agree to be e first six gals to go first i was like so shock cuz din prepare yet...no choice n e 4 of us start of together lo! Starting point e mc try to relax us by joking but with e music n ppl around heartbeat increase so fast! haha...Flag us off n here we come 73 storeys... starting i chiong n din wait for them sorry gals really sorry! I din wan to show off or wat jus wan to set a timing for myself see how fast i can go! hahaha but up till 15 storeys i already half dead! Manage to maintain n encourage others who pass by! SO not too bad but really slag out lo! Legs are too heavy n inside is too stuffy! Overall i get 3rd for under 20women! Not bad... thankz god for e strength! N thankz gal for acc mi join! Not forgetting our supporter! THankz for coming helping us look after stuff! Love ya! den went to eat, prize presentation, lunch with dear family, send him home rest den in army! SiaNz,,, really hate tis feeling yet....no choice! Haiz...pray hard for my roster pls pls pls try to grant mi request pls! I pray hard!

2006-11-19T22:19:00.000-08:00

2006-11-19T06:04:00.000-08:00

17/11 Sleeping day for mi cuz after 4days nite! Super tired! Sleep at home den wake up in e evening time to cook for dear dear eat den went to meet jasmine, ah mao, sab n jasline to go KTV...To celebrate advance birthday party for jasmine! Hmmm...spend e nite there with them while dear at home cuz he is tired plus all gals so while sorry can't acc u again! Brought a ice cream cake for her n we manage to strip her! Hahaha...change into a beautiful dress brought by ah mao jasline n sab plus e gals! Struggle like mad gal lo tis jasmine but manage to tame her down by mi n ah mao hahaha...DB Gals are well train! Hehee :) Hope u like e watch i brought with chuan for u! Time dun await so treasure every moment u have wor! All e best n may all yr dreams come true! Will upload pictures some other time!
18/11 Dear came find mi early morning cuz we have plan! We went to marina to fly kite! Reach there so early shop also haven open siaNz so went arcade to play! Waste 8bucks...siaNZ den finally brought a kite n fly n relax ourself there! Follow on went to watch flush away den home sweet home to cook maggi for dinner! Veritcal marthoon tml...19/11 muz sleep early n jia you!

2006-11-18T17:22:00.000-08:00

Back to blog...feeling confuse of wat to blog! Life journey fills with many stuff...too burden to write it down! ~~~Sadness easily fill my world! Dun noe why too! haha....perhaps i m weak bah...
Anyway DB Race(River Regatta) jus over(11/12)... Mix team we got 2nd plate and guys not bad too! Gals mah...overall i think we did do well cuz given our physical! Maybe we are more suitable for short distance...can see tat bonding for e gals also doing well...hmmm...tat gOOd...! Captain will be a good choice n all e best to her wor! Jia you for u ppl! Train hard for e coming race nv give up cuz lao shi is proud of u ppL!
Last day after race went to celebrate Qinyi birthday den din send dear in camp! Feel sad cuz i suppose to do it whenever i can yet! sorry dear...thank for yr understanding...u are my great dear! Really love u so much! Thankz for been there for mI! Love ya!

2006-11-08T11:35:00.000-08:00

~_~ Thankz god i manage to spend some time with dear cuz he got 4days leave from army!From friday till tuesday! Each day spend some time really wish he finish his amry le lo den dun Nid to returN! Ya Sat n sunday off went training but din really train feel so wasted! Haiz sunday stuipd boat hse open so late den we wait till nearing 12! wat is tis manz! Den before tat we gals went to hav brisk walk one round hahaha>...not a bad exercise wor! Den row awhile i got le n lao shi also din wan us to row cuz not enough ppl den no point rowing! lao shi was very disappointed till crying out! haiz wat is happening!
Training is important especially when race is coming pls ppl do put in more effort! Dun let lao shi hav a disappointment result for e coming race! We are all hunger to win! So we muz do it! Jia you le wor...
Yeah finally open a joint account with dear le...had 100bucks of our both saving from every $1 we save! a good start! Muz save only no withdrawal till hmmm...
maybe our next oversea trip?? maybe when we marry??? Maybe when buying hse?? hmmm who nOes...hopE tis account grow with money only...hahaha!
anyway i m broke...very very broke le muz start saving up...due to some reason

2006-11-03T17:50:00.000-08:00

How should i start off with my feelings...Hmmm mixture of sadness :(, angry, disappointed, confuse combine with failure bah...Perhaps even more! Can't express out for e moment! PPl come in n ppl left, ppl changes.encounter new things,experiments and things will never remain as it use to be! Well feeling lost! I Missing e moment n seems like things are not going well! :( I being to realise i m not a good person bah! Not silly thoughts but is true!!!! I can't able to control things within my hands perhaps blame on destiny bah!!! Wat more can i complain! TIs is fated i suppose! Can't change anything Cuz history always repeat one after another! I m sick n tired n losing all hopes yet haiz confuse sat in! Sat in my mind n making mi feel so lost n emptiness! jus wat m feeling m i having now! I really can't tell it out truly! Lost in anger!! Arrrggg....stress!

Wanna to get away!!!

2006-11-01T23:51:00.000-08:00

Hmmm...jus came back from work...so tired n stress cuz sister on e same shift with mi! Still haven give her e memo cuz i refuse to write! Today took over shift from two lazy ppl den all things n stuff in messy n tell her nicely abt her forget stuff she thinks tat i m telling her off! Haiz...Is not wat i mean lo! I m still junior! Hrrrmppp.... Work also busy cuz Imh patient all at my side trying to be funny! Wanna to bash them hahaha... Tml on afternoon shift can't go training sianz n wat more is i nid to go for outreach at 7.00 den follow by work! Haiz is sure going to be a really tired day for mi! No choice! Suckz...
DB GALS....race coming le pls train hard n play less during training! Pool training also muz train physical de so bring along swim suit n not depend on only yr mood! Jia you n take care.... Jesling how yr test??Hao mah?? Gt to take care too n all e best for yr stuff! Jasmine not well den rest wor! Evonne...take care...i think our relationship hav change but i still miss ya...anything do free to share it up! Nv think u are alone! Cheer up***
DEAR>>> been miss n stress cuz i m afraid not able to get time off for u haiz...we jus hav to pray hard! Real hard for it bah!

2006-10-31T23:40:00.000-08:00

Off day for mi...meet sab to go sch early for swim n som sun tanning...hahha ended meeting ah mao too! Had lunch together and went round hunt for pineapple tarts! Brought two small boxes n we finish it up...hahaha like tis how to cut down faTS! Reach sch 3 den drag around before swim a few laps together with jeslin! Tis sab keep laughing also dunNoe why! Den we start having gal talk n decided to hav game! Play 007 with e guys cuz they been force n can see a few slow reaction ppl hahaha...choon poh n leroy is so blur! hahaha...opPs! Overall hav fun n did some physical cum swim so not too bad! After swim go running n some physical so today din waste training but haiz thursday can't join u ppl! Sad...n sat i will try to get a day off! haIz becuz race n dear holiday crush so sorry dear no choice can't hav off to spend more time with you but to keep off for race day n training...Seem to be lesser n lesser time to meet u le!
Really siAnz cuz next roster is going to be set by an ah nei nurse hu refuse to approve ppl request n she say i better not request so many weekend cuz she won't allow! Haiz den how to meet dear...really worries n upset! Nothing can do but to pray real hard! Pls try to give mi more weekend off or morning shift so i can spend tat little time with hiM! PLS PLS PLS! HAiz...pray hard!
Why do ppl changes so fast n why can't feeling remain unchange?? I Understand ppl stand in n out of yr life easily so is hard to remain as it is but surely won't be tat bad till becoming like stranger...No longer use to be like tat friendly, tat close, tat sisterly, tat....haiz...dun Noe why is it so! I m truly upset! I dun Noe wat i can do to save it back....in a lost! Perhaps i m not a good fren bah! Tat why i always lost friendship.....

2006-10-30T22:30:00.000-08:00

I was told to write a memo regarding patient fall…depressing as it is because it will surely affect my nursing care for patient and my report! Arrrrgggg… Here comes the long story!

Patient from Bed 2 was been push to the toilet and left alone there by the staff nurse maribeth to pass motion.
When patient is done, he pulls the call bell and I went to answer it.
Patient told me he wants to shower now but at that time due to busy
I ask patient if he can do it later as I told him that he can't be alone but he wishes to do it now so I agree.
I then went out to get a plastic bag to wrap his leg as his leg is cover with bandage and at the same time to inform staff nurse maribeth that patient is going to shower now. She Noted and reply ok. So I carry on.
I ask along the NYP student Rudy Huang to help me along. After wrapping his leg, arrange the place neat n spacious for him, we place him near to the shower area and lock the wheelchair!
Student Rudy Huang places his stuff within reach and as verbalize by patient that he can do it himself and ask us to leave!
Reinforce to patient a few times that when he is done or in need of help to pull the call bell! And told him not to do it himself if he can't to prevent fall!
We then left the toilet!
After 15minutes or so, student Rudy Huang told mi that he go and check on patient to ensure he is safe! According to Student, when he peeps in from e door, patient was still fine and having his shower and asks Student Rudy to leave!
So I carry on with my duties and was told later that patient had a fall!

So just what went wrong… I Know am my fault for not standby inside or asking e student to do so. Is my careless and mistake! Haiz perhaps jasmine and the girls is right I m not a good nurse! *****Stresss******

2006-10-27T20:25:00.000-07:00

Jus wat is happening to mi...haiz! Been very down on my luck!!! Wat more to say... haiz... I been down on physical n training lacking, sick, work stress adding on, nothings seems to go rite for mi! Jus wat is happening!!! I Hate all tis feeling n pls....
Work... Low paid, so much work, care n bla bla things for patient! We are human not machine n of cuz not maid been order around! PPl make mistake n we learnt from it rite!!! Why do hav to complain n acting! Seeing yr workingmate been pack up n leave is it nice?? Making e whole world hates u, isolate u, wearing a mask infont of u is it nice?? Why singaporeans always go for cheap things n yet wan e best service! One nurse 19 patients! Is not we dun wan to give e best care but we are trying our best! Yet no one seems to understand n wan to find fault!! Sick n tired! Stress +++++ N why bad things keep happen to mi when working! Why on earth do i hav to get involve when i jus trying to be helpful! Lesson been learnt...kindness dun return! Only bad things will...i had enough of been helpful n hardworking cuz any fault jus blame on mi! Haizzz..... I really stress up!
Self....Been having Very bad headache till awake from sleep n can't sleep! Tears coming out n follow by fever n vomiting! Coffee brown colour! Wat is tat suppose to be! Disturb dear wake up cuz i m suffering really feel so guilty! YEt i seems to hav no one to turn too! Haiz... Frens???? Where??? haiz i dun noE!!! took extra strong pandol *2 den felt asleep but woke up at 5.30 to drag myself to work! Feeling so weak yet few stuff so din wan to take mc! Haiz N having diarrhoea! Suppose somthing muz be really wrong with mI! Thankz for jeslin, shuzhen n son concern!
FAMILY...PLS ALLOW MI TO MOVE OUT OF TIS HOUSE FAST THANK

2006-10-02T11:00:00.000-07:00

Once again is a weekend...got to work on a sat n sunday a stupid course! Haiz No time jus nO time for him!!! Seeing him jus on e weekend yet so busy with stuff n working....really hating it so much yet again NO CHOICE!!!! Haiz...my life with him nOw seems to be jus No choice! Really feel sux lo! Friends seems to be seprating due to so many ppl coming in n out of our life, Work have stress, training can't attend most of it, rowing for race or not still a ??, can't have him...haiz! Wat is life to mi! really wonder!!!
Anyway we went to eat Fish n co on sat for lunch cum dinner! Not too bad den took cab to his hse n went for durain cuz been wanting to eat...hahaha..brought 3 for 20bucks, so ex yet e last durain not nice de so throw it away cuz can't da bao n we are too full hahahaa...OpPs waste money! Again time to go home...e feeling jus totally sux!
Sun go for course but sleep for most of e talk! Too tired n talk put mi to sleep hahaha.,... so went off after lunch to meet dear! Went to eat OUT OF E PAN! Which is actually creeps with meat! Nice taste n trying so not too bad! Abit ex lo...Shop around raffles place den went to changi beach to slack cuz his fren birthday chalet there! pm went to e chalet n eat... e place rent is cheap cuz is clivi defence de but very big! So thought of organize one for DB den can play thru out hahahaha....Wish only lo****when hav e time manz...sianz!
Work...i been counting down! Left with 1year 2month to go to finish my bond! Wan to take O level mah?? Wan to apply poly mah?? continue nursing mah?? Got to make a decision fast le! Stress.....

2006-09-28T19:00:00.000-07:00

Back to blog....Been a long time since i last blog! Too lazy, busy, tired n full of Excuses hehee... anyway jus back from dragon boat camp after 4days!!! Sava race also over le...hmmm race mah wat should i say! Again we din win anything so full of disappointment! But i suppose e gals n guy do gain some experience from e race especially for gals! But still no fighting spirit there! All still play n laugh like nothing happen! How can...We muz bear in mind to come back stronger by training not saYing!!!!
Start of e camp..Day 1 Ppl was late due to e heavy rain, attendance wasn't very happy enough! Sad...organise a camp planning to build bonding cuz tat wat we lack in n also to train up physical yet to see tis type of attendance! Gather to groups den lunch n down to boat hse! Did single rowing n pair rowing! Hmmm result isn't very good for mi(5.26) haiz, lao shi say my physical drop, arrrgggg muz train back cuz i wan to be strong!!! I will always remember tis number n make sure to beat tis timing e next time! Poor sab felt while running down e stairs! Single rowing even u are strong u do get tired n is really very tough compare to pairs n e whole boat! Lao shi show us tat we muz be one, all one stroke, one power, one heart beating e same in order to win!
Day2 Wake up early cuz 5.30 nid to fall in for morning run! Hmmm wake up too early cuz all scare late ended up we still get scolding cuz lao shi say we din nOe how to take care! Start e run n it seems to be endless but gals din give up!Run 7.7km not too bad wor cuz gals manage to finish it with each other motivation! While Jolene fell n yvonne too! Muz be more careful lo now take care n recover fast pls! Den came back did physical n breakfast den some team bonding games! 4 in a group tied our legs together n do e fitness station...really so tough cuz in a group u may hav some weaker teammate! Overall lao shi wanna us to realise tat we nid to motivate each other to finish together n not scolding or fighting cuz one is weaker! Same for race, we muz be one n row together not saying hu is more lousy! Row for one another! Even u are stonger no use cuz yr teammate play a part too!
Day3 Got punish due to lack of discipin problem! We nv bother to wait for each other n nv check e rooms we borrow to sleep in! So did 2sets of climbing up e stairs! We lack of stragies i suppose! We jus focus to much on worries wat will to happen if we din do it! Haiz...Morning run at e track for 22rounds...Also manage to finish but is tiring n mindset muz be good! Muz foucs n dun give up! Each step is our each pull n running is jus like our race! After tat went for course n came back for rowing with them! did a few set of 500m n went back to sch den follow by dinner! Haiz ah mao is sick so lao shi make her go back rest well! Sianz no ah mao mean no fun but nvm hav jasmine hahaha....
Day 4 Was late when fall in, perhaps due to last day everyone is slacking away but halo is not e last day mean we can do tat!!!!! Did e monring run at track again but lao shi was disappointed cuz we are tired n nv open up! Den did some physical follow by slacking n talking den debrief! Haiz some fast e camp come to an end really dun wish! Cuz i enjoy e camp n i hate going back to work! Really dun wish to be an adult! Wan to be back to a student life! hating it so much! Really so envious every single ppl cuz they can still continue to row for ite, holiday, training n fun! Haiz...student life still e best! Missing everyone! Take care n recover soon!
Last of all i miss my dear so much! Din spend much time with him tis week haiz! Seeing others relationship so many problems,quarrel n some really envious both of us! i really feel happy not becuz they quarrel but cuz mi n dear relationship remain stable for so long! Perhaps ah mao n jasmine is rite cuz dear give in to mi alot!Thank dear but Dear pls ORD fast! God bless..

2006-09-07T19:33:00.000-07:00

2006-08-27T01:30:00.000-07:00

Now is 1.30 in e morning n ya i m on my night duty! So sianz cuz i m floater nothing to be in charge but i was grateful to god cuz i m not been depoly to other where to work n do rubbish job! Anyway is still too early too say! Cuz e nite is still young n i m feeling so sleepy! So here to blog...haiz... Silly dear seems to be sick le, been coughing n flu! Haiz so much worry for him yet he still spend e nite out till so late not back home yet! Arrrggg.... too bad nid to work can't be with him! SIanz... But first thing i end work is i m able to see him le yeah...been waiting hopefully time pass faster pls.! Anyway receive a gift from my fren... she brought mi a necklace from US very nice n unique cuz is a padddle!!! LOve it alot hahaha...muz be ex but thankz her...nice gift i get! wink wink!~~**** heheee but dear e necklace i been wearing broke think today i too blur n tired! Cook porridge den chaota, necklace wan to remove to shower broke! haiz...wat a day! Jus feeling tired dun wan to work n jus spend e time with hiM! Anyway god pls watch over him to be well n healthy! Nothing happen to hiM! thankz....ahmen!

2006-08-25T15:30:00.000-07:00

Blog once in a blue moon now cuz damn lazy n so tiring to come online...seems to have no purpose to blog afterall is jus all typing in how i feel...there is no one to care or even bother abt it...how sux each day is, how pathetic i m leading thru, sad or happy or anything can't change anything jus by writting down...haiz...Rite??... Been training very hard to keep fit for e past 3days so tiring now... Today start my night shift again so tired cuz jus finish my night one week ago now again but as a floater lo... Night floater is so siaNz cuz Anywhere in e hospital in e ward short of staff u have to go do thier shit work for them which is super tiring den i in charge...jus pray hard tat i can stay in my own ward to help out dun make mi go other ward do shit job...i really dun wish! Weekend jus burn off like tis due to night shift, haiz not enough time to spend with him sianz...but wat can we do..no choice mah! spend little time tis weekend le lo! N we decided to go KL for 3days 2night to spend our er ren shi jie during his one week break after pop cuz wan to get away from work n all stress jus be with him, eat, shop, talk , play n sleep... I can't get Leave jus day off, one PH but maybe n one day mc bah no choice cuz i wan to spend e most time with him before he go back to army again! God pls grant my request okie... Really can't wait for e day to come fast n when it come e time pls pls pls stop or move slow...Perhaps i m asking too much le lah! N he having his 24km route marching tis coming monday pls watch over him n give him all e endurance n energy to finish e walk with no injuries! Thank god....

2006-08-16T10:40:00.000-07:00

15/08/06 Suppose to go training after work! Pack my stuff with mi le n planning to end work go wif louis as he is in my ward now...yet...arrrggg...been bully! Haiz last min ask mi to go send patient for other appointment which...may not noe wat time will i be back so how to go training! Dun wish to travel down alone n reaching late when everyone already start training! Sianz..reach back e ward around 5.30 den change n make my way home...jus wish to exercise so i ask my cousin go run with mi! Hmmm...not bad wor run a total of 10rounds from block 1 till 5 which one round should be 400m n plus bah so total 4km! So tired at e last round thankz to my cousin pushing mi hahah...old bone n fat le can't run! heheee...Enjoy e run n reach home bath n await for show...missing him so much but he nv call perhaps none of his fren brought hp along bah! hahaha...miss my dinner n fell asleep till tis morning had a dream abt him den wake up look at my hp but no miss call nor msg...disappointed! n worse thinking tat i m late for work! Den only realise i on afternoon shift today hahaha! So blur n lost without him! Wake up at 10 eat my lunch n do my stuff before going to work! Yeah after today, tml afternoon he will be back to his camp n at nite should be able to hear his voice n talk to him! BUt sianz 3more days den he can book out! Pls dun wish to hear him telling mi he injure or wat! Jus watch over him pls god! Bless him! Gtg work le...n bless everyone plus jasmine to relieve her from so much stress... mircale do happen so let her have e mircale! God bless...

2006-08-14T21:35:00.000-07:00

Jus waT type of life m i leading now.... Future seems so blur, past seems so miserable while now is jus meaningless leading by each sec,min, hour n day...Why why why why why...Jus why tis feeling, thinking n wat e hell tis stuff going thru my mind n life! One day 24 hours when with him is nv enough but now it seems so long n dragging past every hour! Perhaps jus becuz of him bah! I lost everything i have, i seems to be dun noe wat m i doing n jus leading pass to await to see him every weekend! Whole mind of him till i lost my mind in wat i doing or suppose to do! Perhaps i m still in mature...din get e pathologis of life yet! Life = Sleep, eat, shit, work n play! So true wor...A person life is to sleep den eat follow by shit n work, get paid den play, shopping tat how a ppl spend a day! I dun wan to lead tis life of working is so tiring...haiz anyway i also dun noe wat m i writing le jus feel lost without hIm... hope he will be well be tekong n pls god watch over him!

2006-08-13T22:35:00.000-07:00

Finally my night shift over le... so tiring n dear dear today set off to TEKONG for out field @4am...sianz End work can't talk to him,or see him! He is away for 5Days!!! 5days may not seems to be long but to mi is like 5yrs lo... I really missing him so much but no choice cuz he not bringing his Hp over in case lost! Not able to hear his voice, see his msg, n see him i feel like life is so much meaningless yet no choice cuz i promise him to endure n be strong! I will try very hard de dear! Tears jus can't control again! So much of worries for him as his back is aching, heel still in pain, Headache, abrasion from e digging hole and some cough! Haiz life in tekong isn't easy to pass cuz alots of shit work to do! I very worry for him! No choice but to pray very hard! Pls god to watch over him n give him energy to carry on watever toughness n endure thru everything! Pls no injuries n all pain to be free!! Pls Take care of him! Next 2wks coming out again pls bless my request to be granted cuz nid to spend time with him! I really can't take it anymore!!!!! Arrrgggg but thankz god today letting mi spend time with ah mao n evonne at sentosa for suntanning cum sleeping! Really enjoy it n play captain ball with some outsider!! Had fun! Muz go out more often! Thank ah mao for always acc mi!!! N jasmine too...evonne muz be more free to acc mi lah okie! hehee... i very scare of lonely de...Useless gal! Miss everyone! God bless pls!

2006-08-06T21:30:00.000-07:00

So fast 2days jus pass over...Again time for him to be inside! He injure his heel while doing SOC(obstacles course) Haiz so worry n becuz of injure he miss e marching session den got to paid back! Sianz which mean his next book out will be late...ARRRGGGG why why why! God pls bless his leg to recover soon so tat he won't miss anymore things n able to spend more time together! Yesterday went to training with an excited heart wanting to row with my new paddle! Yet e boat was full so i hav to give up my seaT! E feeling totally sucks but no choice cuz i m a graduate i got to give up for e juniors! Haiz..wat should i do..dun wish to waste my time at there yet really muz join other team mah?? Maybe i should make up with a decision soon! Dear came down to look for mi actually plan to leave early cuz no seat to row but still await till training end~! Went home cook for dear den we went to watch movie at great world! due to some mis communication. we took e wrong bus ended take cab down! Shop at cold storage for his eating stuff in camp den to e show! Nice show!
Work today totally sucks! Kanna bully but i hav no choice but to accept it cuz i junior there mah! wat can i say or change anything! No rite! I hating it... I hate it alot plus e feeling of dear booking in! I in pain, in hurt! Yet no one can help mi! Tears flowing out again n i make dear worry n cry too so sorry! I dun Noe why but i jus wish he can stay by my side! How nice n wonderful things will be den! Pls god pray u look after him! Pls... Dun let anything or anymore injure to be on him let him finish his army smooth! Haiz tis coming weekend sianz cuz he can't book out going to tekong for out field! Waaa...gonna to miss him till hell cuz 4days no call from hiM! Haiz! Die off le

2006-08-01T22:20:00.000-07:00

01/08/06... Long waiting n finally we got our very own paddle! Was very excited n at e same time was feel some short of confuse bah! Cuz i graduate le not able to row at all so why e point of paddle! But i do really like Dragonboat alot!! Passion never die off cuz i wan to go poly to study n i will row again hopefully! Afterall was happy lah cuz i hav my own paddle n i will love DB even more...hahaa... Jasmine n e rest brought sticker with our name to paste on it...will look even nicer but if tis paddle can lead us to win in our race tat would be much more nicer le...God bless bah!!! Take care everyone...Train hard!

2006-07-30T20:20:00.000-07:00

E jounery to e His amry camp so fast again Times seems to files past whenever he by my side i really hating it!!! 1 and e 1/2 days jus past so soon! he going back again! Arrrggg...I dun wan to lead tis life i having now really dun like it! Hating it so much! So long waiting n suffering to see him for a short while! E pain jus hurt alot...I really trying my very best to control n put up a happy look in front when work or with fren or even with him but deep inside my heart i m missing him so much every sec tat past! So much stress at work yet i got no choice to continue so much things to share with him also can't have him to be by my side! Tired can't lean on him...I really hating it so much! Hu can help mi! I dun wan e suffering! I Noe i can't hav everything to be at my side i should be grateful enough to be able to spend e short moment le but perhaps i jus selfish bah! But without him i really living in depression...haiz
I m sorry tat i did some stupid things tat make his heart ache n worry! I really dun mean to do so..I dun noe wat went thru my mind i seems to be living in confusion n can't make up my mind! I lost my mindset n seems to be in a lost world leading by each day only...Very sorry dear! Seeing u feel gulity abt it i feel bad too but hOw m i to survive i really dun nOe jus praying hard each day! Pray tat he dun suffer anything inside n free from sickness! Everything went smooth n NO CONFINDEMENT pls cuz i really nid tat little time with him! Anything let mi be there to replace his suffer! N pls pls pls all my request to be appprove! Time pls pass soon to sat so i can see him again!...thankz!

Away resting... Tears jus can't seems to stop agaiN! God bless everyone!

2006-07-30T19:22:00.000-07:00

I feel so burden up in my heart with my stuff... my heart feel so heavy n it seems to keep sanking down! ARRRGGGG.... i wan to shout it all out, cry it all out, anything jus to get it all out but to hu, where n how?? I dun wish to trouble my frens cuz they having sch n working! Haiz i dun Noe lah n i jus hate it so much!!!!! Last nite again i break down in tears to dear over e phone! I took him how i feel n e stupid pain cum aching feeling i have totally sucks my life! I dun mean to make u worry abt mi but i jus can't control!! He told mi not to think tis way n dun think abt 2yrs cuz future is jus too far n jus think abt every of his book out day whereby we have fun together! N also said to be strong or esle we can't go thru it together n will be even sad! He Also noe i suffering outside myself but he too feel e same cuz inside life is even worse everything is been control! Ya dear i understand too jus too sorry to make u worrY! I will try my best de! Perhaps i m tired bah tat why having negative thinking! Thankz dear for putting mi to sleep! But kinda of early so i wake up 4 plus n await for his call! Think he too tired too nearly overslept!! Suppose is a nice weather to sleep in bah cuz is raining heavily!! Pls take care cuz dun wan u to fall ill n muz be strong together rite... we will do it de i will hang on there! No worries!

Prayers of e day!

God pls bless chuan everything to be smooth n fine! Everything is been done well n pls no confidement ! anything jus let mi take it in his place! All my request been approve to be able to spend tat little time with hiM or else i will have to live in depression le!!

Bless Evonne tat she n her bf family stuff to be fine n everthing goes fine! Same for jasmine too working life is tough pls give her knowledge n strength to carry on! And ah mao n xinyi studies to be good! Jia yoU! Thank you so much! Ahmen!

I Got to go work le... Really await for tis weekend again to see him! Tis week off sat will go sea training n training bah! God bless!

2006-07-27T19:56:00.000-07:00

2006-07-27T18:53:00.000-07:00

Not been blogging cuz too lazy to on e com! E slide show is i copy evonne de cuz i nothing to do so went to look around n done one for mi n chuan when he first book out pic! Till today coming 3weeks past le e feeling still come on n off! I feel so stress at work n yet i can't do anything cuz i have contract n worse dear can't be by my side at all!!! AAARRRR... Life totally sucks lo! All i can say!...haiz really dun noe wat went wrong with mi! Suppose to go training yesterday to train n acc ah mao but last min i dun feel like going n i in a confuse mind till i cry out! Jus wat is going on in my mind!! I can't make any decision at all! Ended up cry till i sleep! Perhaps i m tired n stress up bah! Life is so meaningless for doing anything without him by my side!!
Training -- Train le yet can't row really more useless lo! N seems like i m getting further from e team le! How... Seeing them so playful perhaps things will turn better bah!
Work -- I really feel stress cuz no ppl to help e juniors do things n still say we slow! N i really hate doing work cuz so many things to do n rmb plus with new sisters more stress! GOt to request for off cuz nid to see him! All i pray for is my sat n sun can off so i can spend at least some time with him or else i will suffer from depression le! I wanna to go back studies! I dun wan to remain as a small nurse for life! Nid to do something to it!
Myself mah -- Haiz i suppose i still trying my best to get use to tis life which i hav to live for 2years! I really dun like it yet i got no choice n times seems to past by so so slow! I so tired n wanna a lean tat can last forever yet can't but i m grateful to those hu acc mi when they can! Really thank so much! Hoping to get better bah as time past by! Pray god to bless chuan everything smooth n dun get any confinement, n help mi overcome e pain soon plus my off days all approve pls jus to allow some time spend with him! Thankz!

Away crying~~~

2006-07-27T01:04:00.000-07:00

2006-07-23T22:30:00.000-07:00

(SAT) Finally 11.00 get to see him le! SO long waiting but see him le can't jus hug on to him lo cuz he in uniform got to respect e uniform! haha... Feel so diff when seeing him perhaps not getting use to see him Botak bah! hahaha... but seeing him i feel so so much happy lo! E feeling of pain jus gone loz! But jus can't think of Sun he book in! Seeing him enjoy e food i cook really feel nice, silly think he dun like army food bah! Went to bugis to took Neo print follow by esplance to sleeeppp...cuz he so tired le! So cute seeing him sleep! Went to eat e big size burger!! Hahaha... so full Den watch movie (POC) With his sister n bf plus bro n gf! ** couple outing! ** spend some time before going home, dear sing song to mi n i fell asleep ended up late for work! hahaha... Jus too nice le!
(Sun) like wat i say late for work den dear came fetch mi n had dinner together at his hse! N send him in to e camp! Had a lean on his shoulder before reaching tat feeling jus too good lo! Nvm i got to be strong n continue to pray for him! So tat he can hav everything smooth in army n await for his book out to be together! Love him always! Muh

2006-07-22T07:10:00.000-07:00

6 plus in e morning now~!! Everyone in their deep sleep!So early yet i can't sleep any longer...Jus too envious to see chuan le...yeah e pain of waiting for him after two long weeks got to stop for e DAY!!! Hahaha So happy!!!! Finally got to see him, hug him, lean on him n so so much things to share with him seems like to mi time is not enough lo...jus for one day! Haiz Yet Tml i have to work in e morning le sianz... Arrggg better than nothing lah! One muz know how to put stop bah! Got so much stuff to pass to him, cookies, barley drink n chicken chop which i had prepare for him cuz i promise him to cook for him at every of his book out if possible hehehe...really so excited yet Time pass so slow noW pls be faster cuz i really jus can't wait to see him le...hahaha... hmmm He book out we going to watch movie n eat alot of things hahaha been waiting le!
Wat a stupid army lo actually he can book out last nite de den last min say cancel can't book out cuz tis morning marching arrrgggg...so angry but tis morning say cancel!!! Really make fun of him lo! nvm mi got to go cook n meet him le... can't wait to see e bodak of him! hahaha!

2006-07-19T21:00:00.000-07:00

** Lets start with my work stuff Bah...~

Thankz god today I got a nice staff same ranking (still junior) to help mi with bathing of e patient! We two nid to do so many things till everything needed to do was late n drag...opPs hahaha... But still manage to finish off on time lah! Yeah tml is e 3 of us which is junior on duty i suppose workload will be fast n smooth bah!

**Training**

After work from AH all e way to Bedok yet reach le den only told tat training ended cuz everyone is jus too tired to continue till 6! Arrrggg...Nvm lo no fate to row bah! Jus have to blame my luck! But meet e rest to have dinner at S11 n chat lo Den home bad home...haiz! Again no exercise think i getting fatter n weaker le...arrrgggg physical better not drop lo!! anyway all ppl go back rest well wor!

**Myself**

I dun Noe wat wrong with mi! Think really din have enough sleep bah last nite! Wonder why too, keep turning n turning n waking up to see hp i suppose i jus too envious to await for his call le till can't sleep! Nearly late for work! Wat a day! Rushing down training fall asleep on e train n again nearly overslept plus see i jus too blur le or wat! I actually forget wat bus i suppose to take n when two bus came i jus went up e wrong bus instead! Luckly i came down immediately n walk to interchange to take n again i went to wrong bus deck!Arrrrrgggg jus wat is going on le lah! Stupid brain pls function more! Perhaps i really missing him le! 2-3 more days he can book out le i told him e first thing i saw him is to hug him tight n cry out! Cry out all e pain on to him n hav a nice lean on manz... hahhaa... Pls be out asap! Missing u so much!

2006-07-18T22:15:00.000-07:00

Wat day to spend... Had a busy day at work, really very tiring n sianz lo! Had a stupid scolding for nothing by a stupid staff! Damn ass lo! Sick n tired of working! E staff not helpful n no students at all! After work still nid to attend a talk for a hospital exercise on tis friday n sat! Sianz..E talk waste of time suppose to be talk to help us ended up e staff there all debating den so many fall asleep! haha...really So stupid! N i still dun Noe wat they talking afterall! Waste my time ended up i din go training lo!Cuz feeling sick e whole day le...Having running nose n headache! Dun noe why feel so restless n no strength! Perhaps love sicK?? hahaa think i think too much le! Reach home do nothing jus slack n spend e time watching tv n search for recipes to make cookies for dear! Cuz he can bring food in to eat for free time! Heheee anyway Thankz for god grace, dear call mi in e afternoon n chat awhile! Tat help to brighten up my day for tat moment! While tis is life tat i nid to go thru 2yrs i can't be always sad yet i can't bring myself to be happy too haiz how how how!
**Dear i Noe u also feeling sucks inside but we got to hang on there tight cuz 2yrs is long! PLs dun be sianz n give up now...Pray very very hard for everything to go smooth n fine hao mah so tat we will endure thru easily! Pls take care inside n dun get any confinement cuz weather is rain or shine i will be waiting for u to book out every sat de! Miss you so much
** Pray for siong ping bah...He called mi n say he is doing guard duty le so fast wor but he also sad cuz over he can't get in army lo! So funny guy ppl wan to get out he wan to go in but tat true lah cuz after his 6weeks in BMT for CD he may get posted to be Clerk which he supper upset with! No life lo n so bored waste his talent inside for 2yrs till he dun dare to tell ppl he din finish army jus CD! Haha But good point is can go back cuz 8-5 everyday...wish chuan also e same but he will be more disappointed lo! LOL!! Anyway do take care i will pray for u to get into a unit more tough de hopefully bah!

****Suffering in Depress :(*****

3-4more days to see HIM! YEAH!

2006-07-17T21:30:00.000-07:00

OFF DAY for mi...thank jasmine for letting mi stay over at yr hse! Went training n meet ah mao but we was late cuz too tired le n tat silly jasmine jus nv had enough sleep! Today training do alot also eat alot n play alot! Had fun n toughness bah but i got to work tml le can't join u ppl for e rest 2days! So jia you wor! my body feel weak le...sianz! Went to eat again before going back n jasmine jus too tired le...better rest early cuz u nid to go training still tml plus .... heheee...Take care ppl...
** Walking back with xinyi n ruby, suddenly wat come over mi is e feeling! Feeligng of sucks n hell!! Arrrggg wat wrong! i feel so lonely n sad! I told xinyi tat i feel sianz cuz 2years down e road i got to be like tis (alone), going back alone, stay at home alone or find U ppl out(But i dun wan to trouble anyone of u jus to acc mi cuz i noe is sianz de!), await for his call every nite for 10mins den wait 5days to see 1day! Arrrrgggg...tis life how m i going to pass thur! 2long long years!! Again tears flow out... i dun noe how haiz! Why came back again! Wat is happening! At first I thought i can endure it cuz 2days pass n i been enduring n thought let it pass over as time took place yet e feeling came over Perhaps is falling sick le bah tat why so sad n negative feeling now! :( :( :( my hearts jus aching alot n alot! So hard to catch a single breathe now, heart jus in pain! Dear i really wish u to be out soon n 2years i dun noe how m i going to pass! I really dun think i can make it! I told u to be strong n together we will be strong yet i falling off le...Jus wish to hang on there for as long as i can bah~~~With god blessing bah! away for resting, tears jus keep flowing n i m tired le...

2006-07-14T17:50:00.000-07:00

Thankz for everyone gift... Especially dear gift... He make an photo album too for mi as gift, at first i thought he din give mi cuz he in army le n i got a water bottle before tat! but so surpise n thankz jasmine for taking it to mi!Happy over e joy, Reach home to see e gift, tears again flow out cuz all e memories in e album n he called mi! I so happy but when he told mi he resting cuz he have fever n throat infection i cry out...arrrgggg....*%&%*%&%%*%* i really very worry n tis feeling jus sucks n totally sucks till hell le...I hate it i hate it n hate it so much...why why why why muz he fall sick when i can't be there for him! I really wan to go see him n be there for him...Sorry haiz he told mi to be strong dun wan to see mi cry but i can't dear! sorry making u wanting to cry out too... wipe away my tears n chat awhile with him while looking thru e album! Sing song for him to sleep...pls sleep tight n recover fast! God pls be nicer pls... pls watch over his health n be well soon! Dun let him stay back inside camp longer for he is sick...watch him to be well finish everything fast n good so he can book out early... Pls dun let us suffer even more! I m more than willing to take his suffer in his place if there will to be pls...Jus wan him to be well n back to his self soon!

2006-07-14T15:30:00.000-07:00

Life seems so meaningless to mi now...watever i do my mind is in deep thoughts of him n jus him!! Everythings, everyplace tat i went seems to have him with mi before yet now i hav to be alone by myself i really feel very lonely n scare! Tears keep flowing out i can't control it anymore seems like emotional have totally control over my life n sadness fill in ever since he left mi to go army! I feel totally useless Yet i, no we got no choice! 2years down e road is gonna to be e same no changes can be make i got to learn to buck up n get on to life by myself! Ppl have been saying all guys have to go thru tis n is jus part n parcel of life! Telling mi to stop crying, get a life for myself dun dependent on him cuz without him e earth still turns life still carry on but to mi i m losing everything i have even if e earth still turns my heart seems to be stop, my life ends... I totally feel tat life is pointless n lonely to carry on i have to get use to him not by my side really feels sucks n hell! Sadness, happiness,joy,tired n sick i can't even have him to be by my side for a simple lean on to rest! Arrrggg...jus where is life without him manz...E pain in my heart hurts alot n alot n so unbearable! Not jus normal pain really can't explain out! all I really wish to take it off mi i really... yet i can't give up! Our Promise not been fufill yet, we got so much things left to be done(happiness) so i told myself i got to wait for him! Now crying out only den i feel better but i can't carry on like tis cuz eyes so swollen n tired who can tell mi how mah, stop e pain in mi!!!
Yesterday he told mi he is feeling sick n morning time i heard from his voice he really seems to be sick...so much of worries yet i can't be there for him i feel useless! I really wan to be by his side looking after him! Training inside so much tough n weather so hot seeing him suffer my heart aches even more...arrrgggg... God pls pls pls...pls stop e pain in mi, pls watch over him to be fine n healthy, pls allow time to pass over soon each day den 2yrs so i can see him n have him back my side n allow mi to overcome any problem without him by my side! pls do so...ahmen!
** Thank (Jasmine, landy,xinyi,ruby,sabrina,yvonne, david,gary,zhijie,cheesiang,louis and raymond) for acc mi to help mi celebrate my 19th birthday! Thankz alot for everything i really appreciate it! Jasmine thanks for lending mi lean on, ever since chuan went in i hav no one to lean on le, i really have a nice sleep! Sorry i try my best le to keep tears yet i can't but like wat u say time will slove everything! I really hope so n pls wish it do so!! Lonely mi thank god for u ppl acc mi...or else life will be even worse!

2006-07-04T06:43:00.000-07:00

Sorry... think my blog is rotting away...i got no mood to update anything...Now living in hell without chuan by my side! I feel so sucks lo!

2006-06-30T08:15:00.000-07:00

29/06 Away from night shift finally...so tired! Back home sleeping den go for pool training! Still feel tat gals not really tat ready yet cuz their stroke n mindset not rite yet! Still as playful as before bah anyway mi too! Hahaha...
Last min dear told mi he decide to go MOS with them cuz they been wanting it as a gathering...But...not sure wan to go mah anyway i jus Tag along lo!!! Heee...
***Sad n disappointed, in rushing for time to go meet them i BROKE dear give mi e anniversary necklace gift! When i open e box wanting to take e necklace to wear it jus slip out! Arrggg...not in time to catch it so in pieces now...Haiz SO careless of mi! Haiz tis few weeks been losting stuff tat dear give mi! IS it a hint for mi tat telling mi i might lose dear too...haiz i beinning to get worried le...! Jus pray hard tat i can lose all things but not dear pls!
** Clubing mah...fun but tiring... wat to say mah...hopefully no more next time cuz once experience is enough le...!

2006-06-28T13:44:00.000-07:00

Now i suppose everyone is in their deep sleep bah...while mi mah...still have to be working cuz i m on night shift! Supper tired! Finally today is my last nite, had enough of it le Been clearing shit n so many other stuff to do!All i wan jus can't wait to go home n hav a good rest before training! Yeah~~~ Think dear also in deep sleep...whole mind only him also cuz really miss him so much! Anyway got to get my stuff done before e morning being...so gtg le...take care n god bless my nite pls...hahahha...

2006-06-27T00:30:00.000-07:00

Wake up from sleep again! So tired n i keep thinking should i go training or not...hai sad loz den dear told mi to rest at home cuz working at night plus if go train le wait tired den also can't go race cuz i graduate le! If not wait no seat or wat i can't row also waste time down! More sianz when i heard tis...really damn sianz lo!! Haiz dun wish to end Dragon boat jus like tis but....arrrggggg.....how leh! Really feel so lost lo! Haiz really dun Noe if like tis buy le paddle for wat plus train le for wat! Should i join NHG! Really dun noe loz...in a lost lo! Sianz... Wat a luck! I love ITE team but can't row really sianz lo! Not in any mood le...disppointment n sad now...

2006-06-26T04:00:00.000-07:00

Taken e med making mi feel so drowsy e whole day... meet dear around afternoon time n went to his house for dinner! Had chicken rice which was nice cuz cook by his grandma! N try out dear birthday toy hahaha... Den dear send mi to work! So sweet! But hate e feeling for enjoyment come to an end n i hav to work!
Again i m on night shift! Supper tired n busy...now so relax time(0340) cuz can't be bother so much yet hahaha... so here to blog! Oops.. still got lots more of stuff to do jus can't seems to be finish lo! Whole mind only dear cuz can't wait to end work den see him go have breakfast! Tis week i m on 4 nite so sianz lo! N very tired de...Zzzzz Haiz counting down to dear go army only left around 1weeeeekkkk le...so scary n sad!! Arrrggg..... how....can't do without him lo! Sianz!!!

2006-06-26T02:02:00.000-07:00

Jus wake up from sleeping...still feeling tired yet can't sleep any longer...well tat is becuz my life clock is been turn upside down for e time been!Here n there nid to get use cuz i got shift duties! Yesterday so so busy till hardly can catch breath lo! Anyway still get e job done over n get back home...before tat meet dear go polyclinic change my dressing n e nurse say is getting better le... thank god manz... pls recover well n dun come back again! Follow by breakfast den home bad home to sleep... Thankz silly dear for accompany mi till i sleep! Sooon going to work again le... Night shift seems so long yet sleeping time seems so short! ahahha...Doing 4nite so so long lo thou paid is higher but is tirining! I hope dun do it so often hahaha... anwyay got to go prepare my stuff le getting ready to go work le...
HI5--- after race we go eat steamboat hao mah?? Den go jasmine hse ton?? cuz i m off n sat n sun muz make full use lo! Go enjoy ourself cuz is been a long time seems we last meet up! Really missing e moment so so much!!! ***NEO XINYI U BETTER FREE YRSELF N COME JOIN US ALL E WAY HOR!! NO HALF WAY OR ELSE WE WILL KICK YR BUTT! *** hehee...okie... anyway take care everyone...

2006-06-24T00:01:00.000-07:00

Friday went to visit polyclinic to chnage my dressing! Sian dun like going to see doc yet now seems like i have to everyday go! Wat a luck i have manz...! Thankz god got dear by my side to console mi n let mi lean on! Sorry dear becuz of mi u can't go clubing with yr frens kind of blame myself!haiz... after e polyclinic went to ang moi kio cuz dear nid to do survery there den meeting gary they all for dinner! Before tat went to bishan to shop for stuff! Buy a pair of slipper n 3/4 jeans! Spend money again hahaha wat to do seldom buy things so in a mood so buy lo! hahaha! Den went to ps meet them here n there drag n drag cuz they din Noe wat movie to watch! Ate our dinner at yaoshinoya not sure spell correct mah but was nice n hungry after so much dragging haha! E rest went to watch movie while dear n mi go home! Cuz i m jus too drowsy to watch any show wanna to rest!
Sat~~ early in e morning had breakfast with my aunt! So long din eat with her le...ahhaa follow by medicine time sianz.! Den along go change dressing cuz dear busy at training mah! So painful loz! Wish dear here! Went home to pack my stuff den go training, not meeting xinyi cuz she is sick le( got to take care n recover soon wor!) Anwyay training was nice n had a small race with NTU guys! Thou lost le but e gals put in effort well done wor! Still lack of more effort n team work! Train hard cuz race coming le...wish u gals all e best wor! Eat dinner den came home so tired!
**Thankz dear for been by my side so long tis few days till i sleep! really very happy n so worry when u go army den how....sianz n too scary to think abt it le! Really missing u so much! Thou i m in pain for my ear n feel sux taking med each time thankz for e console! Really love u alot!
***Hi 5... when our next outing?? Go have steamboat?? missing u ppl! n seems to have lost touch with u ppl le... haiz pls pls pls... i really treasure u ppl! Haiz... take care!

2006-06-22T20:07:00.000-07:00

So much pain in my ear now! Due to e ear pierce i got infected n swollen n grew one stupid lump there! Been dragging for weeks din wan to see doc cuz hopping it will get well but seems to be getting bigger n hurtful instead! Asking around docs for solution but still nid to go for op so well no choice! Went to A&E wanted to get letter to do e op instead e doc there ask mi to directly do it on e spot! Get a shock of my life cuz i m not prepare...arrgggg lost of words but still get it done lah cuz dear say no point getting it drag again n again den still muz wait! So agree...lying on e bed while waiting for e doc my whole body shivering till like wat sia...so cold n scare yet cant have dear by my side! Really feeling damn suck! E procedure quite fast lah but also painful! Hid my self under e blanket n praying it to be fasted! Whole mind only wanna to go home fast! SO much pain yet dun noe how to say out cuz is jus too numb le... Thankz dear alot for been by my side for mi n send mi home plus await till i sleep den go back! So sweet of u! Thankz!!! Sianz loz...it is jus hurting so much! n i think is a big price to paid for a small ear priece! Anyway have 3days MC but ended up only making use of one daY! sianz... wanna to rest at home cuz everyday got to go poly do e dressing incase infected again! Now my ear jus sux! haha... Sorry everyone can't go clubbing with u ppl le... cuz of mi chuan not going! Will make up for u ppl e next day! Sorry! Take care n enjoy... miss ya ppl so much!
DB gals sorry yesterday on afternoon shift so din go training! Hope training was good n u ppl train hard! Really missing u ppl so much! Take care...

2006-06-21T23:24:00.000-07:00

Blog have been rotting away for weeks le...hahaha... Too busy plus lazy to blog n on e com! Anyway not going to blog in details cuz i also roughly forget abt stuff i have been doing le...hahhaa...
17/06-- Hav a Inter ITE N POLY race for dragonboat, think is my last race for db plus as a pacer le... Sad to say we lost jus by one sit to RP! So sad loz! But one great things is e gals all put in their effort n do e best le! So jia you n train hard now for 1st july race okie! U gals can do it de i will support u! At nite went to dear dear party for his birthday celebration! Eat n eat n talk around entertain his fren cuz he is just too busy! Plus helping him take pics with everyone! Think e most valueable gifts is e paddle from lao shi! hahaha...so thoughtful of lao shi! They all sabo him with cakes till so yucks yucks!
18/06-- went work cuz request for DO not granted! And no choice lah force myself to wake up! After tat meet dear go shop for laoshi baby first month gift! Den meet jasmine n landy took cab down to coast sand for laoshi stuff! Eat there n carry e small n fragile baby! So cute n look like laoshi first kid net! hahah... went off early cuz again working plus jasmine n landy they are damn sack out too hahaha...
19/06-- 20/06-- Busy doing last min work for dear dear gift as his birthday is 21/06 but he celebrate early! Den took a cab down to find him n give him a surprise! Sang birthday song n cut birthday cake but e cake not very nice hahah sorry! Anyway happy birthday!
21/06 went out to ton n celebrate dear birthday den next day work! Sianz... had fun with dear hope he enjoy his 21st birthday n like e gift! Take care...

2006-06-07T23:30:00.000-07:00

** Not in any mood to simile to laugh to be happy to think OR to do any single thing...Jus wat wrong with my mind... jus wish time stop n i can go back to my student time where by i can train hard n row hard! Stupid thinking cuz it can nv be anyway ! Sianz...hmmm Jasmine say i day without laughter is a day wasted so anyway think i have wasted a day today which is true... SAD! no smile... :(

2006-06-05T23:05:00.000-07:00

Been on night shift so have not been blogging cuz e day time been use for sleeping instead hahha...working night shift is so so tired n scary loz! Din really hear things but do have fishy fishy things happen lah...hahaha but well is over le!
** Sunday went to SENTOSA! so tired cuz jus after work jus slpet for an hour but still got energy to play hahaha! beeN a long time since i last go n have been fairer le so went for a tanned n some fun with e db mates!Haiz too bad evonne n xinyi can't join us! Haiz HI5 long time nv meet up le! WHEN??? Haiz.. Suprise, seng qing n a few of them join us cuz han feng ask them n we play captain ball! Had fun n joy with them n went to geylang eat durain n lychee! So nice wor...also ate alot of heaty food tat day so got to drink more water le..>jasmine, landy, yvonne n sabrina n e rest! Take care!
**din had a good sleep cuz family very noisy so angry but no choice la! Sianz...meet dear in e afternoon to bring my 3cousin out to watch movie (OVER E HEDGE) so nice n funny hahaha...had a nice laugh! n bring kids out is so so so troublesome! N i paid for them wif dear spend alot of money sianz/..got to save up le for tis month cuz dear birthday jus around e coner! Hahaha...got to rest cuz tml having training n working early! Take care everyone!
**Jasmine how u le...better mah! got to take care

2006-05-31T21:16:00.000-07:00

31/05/06 Went to meet jasmine at Tm for shopping n swimming... Had our lunch first at BK but din really finish cuz we been talking till too full to finish up our food hahhaa...Den walk to adidas shop cuz jasmine wan to buy her fren a jacket! Dun hav so went swimming...at first weather was so good but start to dip in e water e rain came by lah! Sianz... N tis jasmine very lazy to swim jus wan to stay in water haha but too bad have to acc mi so we swan 2 laps n continue to talk! hahaha... Sun came back again but we plan to leave le cuz thought of acc jasmine go far east by e jacket but ended not confirm so din buy! Dun feel bad cuz i acc u so far but din buy anything! U also acc mi mah... silly gal! But i really enjoy myself n bullying u lah..jus kidding i so nice won't bully u de! But gal u got to save up lei i see u always anyhow spend money on buying ex gift for ppl! Yao si le wor wait rainy days how leh! Save up okie dun spend anymore on gift le! Think i muz be yr finical department control too le...hahaha!
** Follow on went to dear hse for dinner cuz his grandma cook chicken rice wor...had a nice dinner n slack around awhile before going back! Went to playground to play swim n chat there awhile lah cuz tis week dun seems to have time to meet hiM! sianz... Thinking wat to buy for him on his birthday lo...haiz... Got to save up for money cuz wanna to return him n jasmine e hp money dun wan them to anyhow spend money! hahaha...
reach home very tired cuz tml starting my nite so nid more sleep today! Nite

2006-05-30T23:01:00.000-07:00

How shall i start my blog...in lost with wat to write cuz in my mind there seems to be many stuff n deep in thoughts with many many stuff...
** Work...starting to get use to life in wards le though is very busy, stress n tiring but still i m liking it so i nv regret my choice n i shall NV! But i do miss endo e small family afterall ppl there are nice too! Hmmm starting my night le quite excited n anxious plus scare lah but god bless mi hope my night is peace n everything fine... pls! Praying hard hahaha...
** Family... everythings seems to be normal but still i m in cold terms with m y uncle! Not in any mood to talk to him perhaps i m still angry bah hahaha...depends anyway forgive n forget is a good point but well n tat a hard point where by ppl can hardly achieve! hahaha...Something bad seems to happen to my another aunt which make mi hold my decision in moving out sianz still in considering my decision loz...! how... dun wish to run away from tis problem but i left with no choice!
** DB...GAls gals gals pls come for training lah dun always on n off as u like! haiz so much disappointment yet nothing seems to be able to help lao shi to put e team up! Perhaps like e senior bah after e race more bonding n thinking will change cuz u ppl will experience e feeling of losing n winning! Den u ppl will grow bah! Coach coach pls be more fierce n strict with training only den ppl will take training seriously n things will be much better! N gals dun think tat lao shi nv put u ppl for race den dun come, can't think tis way loz! Train hard for anytime race rather than tis round! Haiz... N wat coach say is rite, TRAIN as if is e race n RACE as if is a training! Add point to our thinking wor! But how many ppl often do it! Anyway how hard u ppl put in for training will prove at tis coming race so we shall see bah! continue to Jia you bah!
** HI5... Are we still who we are? are we still e hi5 group!! where is e joy n fun we use to have le... e days of taking lame n funny pics, outing n drinking?? Bully jasmine?? Every one seems so busy n things seems to be change le... haiz really very sad! U ppl are hu i really treasure now which i dun wish or can't afford to lose as i lost one le! Really I m missing u ppl and when can we go out n have fun again?? Take care everyone!
Anyway in a life journey, so many ppl step in n out of yr life leaving different foot step! Stepping hard or soft on u, leaving e memories for u! Pain or happy still u have to take it! But jus Who can we really befriend in or trust! Headache of friendship stuff or any relationship cuz is so difficult to handle n hard to make changes to follow up with it or even to bid e last words to yr close frens everythings change every min u are in! should jus leave it to e footstep itself bah! away for resting le...tired!

2006-05-30T08:01:00.000-07:00

Din have a good sleep last nite! Think feeling sick due to caught in e rain during training yesterday at training bah! Sianz... and can't sleep much too wake up early n slack till work time! Raining so heavily even more sianz very lazy to go work n having a heavy head! Anyway got dear gift from japen hello kitty umbrella so no worries! hehee... Jus tat is abit too small loz...hahaa
** Work mah...here n there slack around cuz not much patient at all! Still not too bad but jus dun get use working on a sunday hahaha But few patient also nOt good cuz they always call n call till so fan in e ears feel like scolding them hahaha...no choice nurses have no rite! Haiz ONe old grandfather so thin n so sick! Like going off le...so sad! But when i free i always talk to him n enjoy feeding him! Seeing him eat i also feel happy! God bless him to recover soon bah! N i starting my night shift next week...scarly....
** AH ma n xinyi not coming training on tuesday, haiz den training sure very sianz n bored! So both of u own mi 500PUMPING okie... i very good to u two cuz Knowning tat u will be dancing all nite so leg tired den jus paid mi back in hand loz... equal out yr tired den balance!! Rmb hor... Hopefully is gym den can have a good workout! **EVonne u coming mah! been a long time since u come le n race is coming din u say to train hard de mah! Really missing u alot wor... hmmm jasmine is back le wor...hahha can bully her le...hahaha! missing her too! away for resting....

2006-05-27T18:30:00.000-07:00

Hmmm...today wake up so early can't sleep anymore longer din noe why too...hahhaa! Slack around at home n plan to iron my unifrom cuz tml got to work but so nice got maid to help mi iron! MY uncle maid at my hse cuz my uncle whole family went to shenzhen for holiday! So good... but they are jus too rich anyway!
**Get prepare n shower den meet xinyi go training! Reach tampines den wait for e gals... Junior so on e time! Den we took bus to training! Do warm up n run n do some pumping! Seeing everyone pushing tat a good point!! Welldone juniors but still Nid more effort loz! senior mah i have no comments!! Hmmm...rowing din get to row so sad! Sianz... Cuz not enough seat so i went to couck le...sianz waste of time! But no choice cuz i graduate le so can't taKE e seat n waste their training time... haiz...sianz should i go NHG mah at least i still get to row... rather than waste my time!But i miss everyone n only at there i can push myself...arrggg wat to do...sianz.... Gal next time dun be late for training cuz u ppl are as a team so train as a team mah n late le den pls put in effort to run here den walk can!! Disappointed n attitdue muz improve!! anyway tired le!!! sleep on e way back n knock my head! Tat xinyi still can laugh...so bad! anyway training no jasmine so quiet! hahah missing her...

2006-05-26T18:16:00.000-07:00

** Having Two days off tis week from work really feel very good n nice... Can relax abit n relieve from stress of work! Morning meet le dear for breakfast den send him to work n go get my sim card back! Haiz starhub nv send thru mail cuz go down customer centre to take so went to ps with my aunt! Den shop around for some ladies stuff! Hehehe... Finally can use my hp le... First to save jasmine number cuz she say i bo xin nv rmb her number now i rmb le wor...hahhaa... den msg her n dear! Went home to slack after tat n do my own stuff feeling so bored but no choice cuz dear got to work till at nite....sianz!! No choice lah cuz he can't change so i jus have to rest at home! Tml training so happy can go... Sea training leh been missing it for one week got to train hard today le wor...

2006-05-25T21:12:00.000-07:00

**Thursday** Sorry dear making u worry again for mi n coming down so early to find mi! But i m fine jus wish to be alone... hmm cancel my line tempory n awaiting for new slim card! Went to work without a hp really feel like a shit loz! WHole day can't msg dear or anyone nor do anything really...haiz wat can i say, but to blame myself for been so careless n blur to lost e hp!Arrrgggg....really damn sad! Till now i still missing n hoping e person to return mi my HP or MMC pls... Work isn't very busy so call dear to chat awhile n slack around loz till end work! Haiz can't go training so sianz loz heard they went gym! Tat nice...i also wan to go but haiz... think also no mood le perhaps training can help to relieve e stress i m having now!~~~
** meet le dear after work! So shock n suprise to see jasmine there too! Haha she say wanna to see mi wor! So sweet n nice of her wor! Hmmm but actually they brought mi a HP le wannna to give mi! I was very touch but thankz dear n jasmine alot...u all are very nice n good to mi but i won't take such an expensive gift de! Plus jasmine u nid to save up cuz u wanna to buy so many gift for so many ppl!! Will return u ppl e money! But thankz alot still! Still i missing my hp...haiz...sianz... wat can i do n say leh...perhaps like wat everyone say good things will follow after each day things happen! Missing everyone...

2006-05-24T23:55:00.000-07:00

**Wednesday 24/05/06** Wat a down on my luck day i suppose...having headache e whole day n meet jasmine go do some window shopping! Den meet dear go his hse eat dinner! Arrrggg... den when going home i den REALISE tat i LOST my HP!!!! Which was den after one hour! N called my hp was already off le! arrrggg dear still went to hougang interchange to find but was In No HOPE! lost of mood for anything! Haiz E hp tat lost doesn't bother much jus e stuff inside MEAN ALOT TO MI!!! All e pics, message of dear from e starting till now n those good nite message all lost n my fren number gone! Arrggg... seems to be fallen into helL! N lost dear jus given mi e PIG HEAD Hp chain even more sad! haiz jus why tis year everything seems to be bad for mi! Haiz god pls change of fate for mi can! I m really hating it n can't take it le>..jus wish to be alone n away! haiz..

2006-05-23T22:55:00.000-07:00

**Work** today indeed was a slack n bored wan till i even more tired! Jus sending patient n keep talking to him n thankz got dear to acc mi on e hp when he was in scan! N my lunch was treat by e nice patient haha..save le money wor! Back to wards help out wanted to go le but arrggg tis staff nurse always seems to be bully mi ask mi do things for her! Den 3.05 soon to 3.10 still ask mi help her fetch case haiz no choice lah help her n e moment i reach ward i plan to leave le she said "joyce i haven take over how can u leave e patient with e students! not allow so help her transfer patient n end work at 3.25 instead! **Big bully** hahah while fetching case saw dear sleeping so tired at e lobby! So funny! Slept on e way to training so tired!
** Training** At first was quite DISAPPOINTED cuz when i reach there was still NO Gals insight! Jus wat is happening den i call XInyi n she still Waiting for bus at 4.45 saying not late still! Wanna to kanna knock at e head by mi le... n my cute ah ma in e library studying till so hard wor tat 4.55 still dun noe... hahah... n she told so long to change a shirt! Ah ma u may nid help not only feeding maybe changing too...hehehe...i will be in joy to help u loz..!(chi yr tofu!) hahaha N welcome our new coach!! She looks so young n easy mixing around with us...hopefully she will lead e team well n train us even tougher on next training! Hmmm...senior so few came only very disappointment leh where is everyone hungry for winning! RACE JUS AROUND le...No more enough time but overall e junior done very well...Maintain n dun give up easily hor! **Clapped n cheers** Had a nice,enjoyable n tiring training for everyone so be prepare for even tougher wor! **SAD SAD SAD! Thursday last min i can't go training cuz my fren unable to change with mi le! Cheat my feeling!Sianz i m super sad now...No mood! Coach dun treat soya bean without mi leh! Haiz i wan to go but no choice! How?? *SAD MOOD**
**Evonne** why din come today?? i thought u saying coming to see mi! I m missing u loz...haiz! Anyway take care okie! Miss u!
** Having backache think too long din train le, will take coach words n do more stretching de... Now awaiting for dear to be back home n sleep...so tired tml on morning shift why not thursday! Sianz...Sorry dear dear change of plan not to gym with u n my son (david) cuz i meeting my sweetie jasmine(yucks) hehe jus kidding! go shopping hahha...finally Paid day on thursday! but still got to give family sianz... Anyway tired needed a good rest cuz tml working! Take care everyone n miss u ppl!

2006-05-22T23:30:00.000-07:00

Din had a good sleep last nite...was so tired but thank god morning meet le dear to have breakfast n slack around shopping for lao shi baby gift...Thought of a few ideas n also quite lame de...hahaha...N today had headache while working...
**Went to work, to my surprise e patient hu after my feeding is still alive n everythings is normal...perhaps tat time he really jus too tired wanted a nap bah...heheee...Not in charge in his team went to front team! E patient all okie n thankz to NYP gals help! Actually also not much things to be busy with so taken two breaks today thankz god for e peace...Anyway get to done with my things n go back on time...tat nice! Haha tml morning shift sianz resting early bah! But tml more easy i suppose cuz jus nid to send patient to Other hospital for checkup n treatment n slack with them hahaha...relaxed leh...
***TRaining*** Yeah yeah yeah...so happy finally can go training le been missing for e past one week feel so fai le... So happy can train with u ppl again! Really been missing u ppl...haiz wat abt u ppl le? Got miss mi mah or happy tat i din come n forget abt mi le...Hmm tml we shall train harder bah cuz i have not been training...Evonne muz come hor cuz i been missing u too! Same for ah ma n xinyi...!Anyway can't wait to see u ppl tml...thursday not sure i can train mah cuz last min can't change but i will try! Take care...
*** Hoping for a good sleep cuz waking up at 5.30 tml...sianz... Good nite ppl n rest early...

2006-05-22T00:50:00.000-07:00

Head so heavy went to sleep early now i m suppose to be in my la la land dream yet ended up waking n scold by ppl! Jus wat went wrong! Is it mi e one of jus my family tat i no longer seems to be able to stay with! Arrggg.... all cuz by my stupid cousin hu from hougang came back! HE is making so much noise n my grandma wan him to sleep in my room!I jus wake up n shout n my grandma scolded mi! Haiz all i wan jus a peaceful sleep so can work tml why is it muz turn out tis way! Feel like slapping tat fat asshole cousin of mine! He is always giving us trouble each time he is back! arrrggg... Hating everyone in my family (stranger) they are so HYPOCRITE! Pretending to be nice but when things happen or they bad mood they jus scold U! Anyway i not part of tis family, i dun care cuz i long give up on them! Is time i be on my feet n get a life myself outside though is hard at least there is happiness n joy more than sorrow! God pls let mi found a place outside soon n stay happy! I m really sick n tired of things been happening so far...I really wish for a happy family too but it jus too far dreams of mine i think!! Haiz...Fate are created by god tis way den i shall live with it! I jus wan to be alone n stay cuz tis family no longer mine... go rest le..thankz jasmine n junyi for talking to mi! Rest early!

2006-05-21T20:34:00.000-07:00

***(SAT)Finally done my morning shift...haiz from afternoon to morning really had difficuites in waking uP!! so tirining...worse still no students to help mi around n was like so busy n patient keep wanting to go toilet when they are not suppose to! Arrggg...uncle be more guai can mah!!! Hmmm planning to have my break before feeding my patient thru tube but hu noes after feeding he collapse den everything got to be done n my fren ask mi u feed into lung ar... but afterall he survive n everythings is fine till i end work! I was so shock loz... but nothing to do with mi loz cuz i m sure i nv feed into his lungs! :) Nowadays life so fargile de one min struggle for life next min letting go le...no time to catch up loz! End work meet dear n he cook lunch for mi! Thank sweet dear...sorry suppose to watch MI3 de but din cuz no time n too lazy hahah wen to took neo print instead n walk walk! Haiz also dun noe wat got in to mi jus dun feel like talking suddenly n jus wish to be alone...actually want to go home cuz e feeling is like i jus wish to be back n rest n alone but went jasmine hse to stay cuz dear worry! Also cancel tml gym trip jus wish to return home early..>!
**SUNDAY** Wake up early n saw jasmine still so soundly asleep...and jus went home to be alone! gal i not da pain zi okie i m fine jus dun noe wat is going on in myself too,,, i jus feel lost bah i suppose! Sorry let u worried too! Spend e day at home n dear came to look for mi! Afterall i m feeling better after been at home myself! Everything is back to normal le...had dinner with dear n he went homE! Tml afternoon shift hope everything peace n harmony bah...n wat abt e patient...tml i shall noe it...see how bah! Take care everyone!

2006-05-18T22:40:00.000-07:00

Yeah dear is finally back...So happy till dun noe wat to say jus wish to beat him up...hahah Now journey to anywhere no longer so lonely n i have him to lean on! So nice feeling...hahaha.. Meet him in e morning to have breakfast den to my hse n he give mi all e Present tat he brought for mi n e DB ppl! So many nice gift n e best n sweet gift is a musical box self make by him(some part)! Thank dear for all e sweet n cute little gift! Plus Cheese cake all e way from japen till singapore so delicious n nice! Yummy yummy gonna to eat for my dinner tml when working!
**Work** Not tat bad things are getting better i suppose cuz familer with work le! Got to finish my work on time ensure everything is rite cuz din wanna to get any scolding! Hopefully things go well everyday bah! But at e end of work is really tat tired! Think too stress n tired le keep having bad dreams tis two nights..But thank dear is back so not much worries!
**DB Gals**... Heard tat training no senior come...poor u ppl but anyway Jasmine tat batch u ppl are also senior le should at least noe how to deal with situation like tis cuz Afterall db will be still pass down to yr batch~! I will be back next week, so u ppl gonna to train hard okie, always rmb tat come back even tougher on next training plus NO PAIN NO GAIN! June we going to see e result of all yr hardwork...hang on there wor~~~ Sorry ruby din Noe it was yr birthday...anway HAppy Birthday!! All e best in wat u do n Jia you for training!
**Hi5** Chuan brought some little gift for us too...hahha...he still rmb wor! anyway really miss u ppl loz... haiz..arrgg evonne u okie le mah why seems to be more serious de..got to take care n go see doctor pls dun drag!

2006-05-17T23:50:00.000-07:00

**Work** today so tired again but still managable den yesterdaY~~Still nid to thankz e NYP gals n my staff nurse as she willing to guide mi to things i m not sure :) **Thankz god e tiring day of work come to an end!! Haiz think work really zip energy loz, after work i m so tired den miss my stop cuz over slept!Arrggg walk longer way back! Reach home bath den prepare le go make my way down to FETCH Chuan...hahaha... Finally today chuan will be back, e long waiting have come to an end! So Happy! But haiz i overslept again ended up at tampines take BUS! Thankz for jasmine acc mi chat on bus journey...hahah for she worried i might fall asleep again! OH ya thankz Evonne n Cheexiang for teaching mi e way to take bus!Without u ppl i think i might still hanging out at tampines le...hahha... Waiting for him plus thinking of wat to scold him when i see him hahhaa so bad rite! tat wat jasmine say! HaLo i m good to him jus tat scolding him make mi more happy i suppose hahha... Today staying over at Jasmine hse cuz din wanna his family to drive mi back so far n i very pai sai loz...Hao le gonna to rest le, tml nid to work again n jasmine got to study! Morning going back with dear hahaha...no longer tat lonely journey le...so much things n stuff to talk to him! hahaha...Tired for today le...
**DB gals** jia you for tml training! So sad can't join u ppl! But next week i shall be back even tougher to meet u ppl okie! Miss ya...Ah ma n evonne not well den muz take care...muh muh! Dun forget abt mi hor...

2006-05-16T23:50:00.000-07:00

**Dread tired** Gym din do much jus some light weight n tone hand no running cuz machine all use up! so pack with ppl!! ***Work haiz only morning shift also got ppl wan to change with mi! haiz...i n sick n tired of afternoon but no choice! arrggg! Forget it lah! so piped up today!5 admission of e same time, drip all wrong, ppl are so demanding,staff nurse not helping n so many hourly check on patient! waa...going to brust soon le but thank sweetie of NYP Gals for yr wonderful help! Muh love u ppl~~ 8Plus still with so much work, receive e call again so rush to a room n answer! So happy till over e joy! IT was dear hu call but it last only short while cuz i m busy! Really tears gonna to flow e moment i hear his voice! Really missing him!! Some energy charge up haha...e next call was around 10plus chat abt how work n things to help others buy,hai wanna to share more also can't soon gt to hang uP! so sad,,,really dun wish to put down, ask him go buy somemore phone card but he no money le hrrmmppp... i still thought can chat long! SOB!! Tears jus flow! One more day to go! I muz hang on...Working till 9.30again tml,gonna to bath n make my way down to find him cuz i been waiting for e day! **(Finally) Think when he is back talk 3 days 3nite also not enough loz...hahha
**Evonne** Jus wat happen to us...i hate handling relationship, why it always have to happen i also dun noe...anyway always rmb nid someone to cry n lean on too can find mi! Okie! take care n rest well...hope u recover soon from yr illness! God bless...muh muh
**Jasmine** Well done for yr exam...got to work even harder next time round hor...Jia you!
**cheexiang n gary** Chuan nv buy sex Toy hehee...perhaps he use there le...hahha but he brought ramen back so no worries!
** All dB gals** keep up every good work n jia you for training! U ppl muz hungry for winning jus like e way in training okie...june we shall see e result le! DUn let lao shi down! Missing u ppl so much..
Hao le gonna to rest le cuz eyes can't open, leg so tired from running n standing all day long plus body feel so heavy! really can't await for dear to be back n share with him everything tat had been happening! My family n i on cold terms...anyway i still rmb i m suppose to move out de! hahaha...Missing everyone..

2006-05-15T19:15:00.000-07:00

Alarm rang long time ago jus have to Drag myself to wake up...toOk a long time to fall alseep last nite!Really can't sleep at all! **Tired** Perhaps is excited or maybe jus him bah! Aiyo my hair...arrggg All standing up haiz no matter how i tie it jus look messy n ugly, think too short le! Sianz nid to ask for advice to style it! How... Seems to be in a dazy dream! Jus wat m i doing??? Haiz!
**WORK** Reach workplace, everythings is so new to mi, every person's faces n smile are stranger to mi! Thankz lavania(my batch gal) for orientation mi around...if not i have been in worse day! Anyway workload isn't as heavy yet but suppose to be! Afterall i still new so they jus help mi n guide mi along e way! Thankz everyone n i got a nice precetor to guide mi thankz god! Sad things is tml i will be incharge of a team myself together with a senior staff hu was famous of stressing ppl n make ppl do work rather than herself...arrrgggg **stress** also no choice cuz they short of staff so i got to learn things n do things fast! God bless my tml afternoon! Waa...worse of e things is i can't go training tis week cuz i m on afternoon e whole week! Sianz no way of distressing myself leh!! How...gonna be slack in physical n fat n sad le...anyway i can request it next week bah cuz i still new dun wanna to trouble them! E wards staff seems to be nice n e head in charge is very nice n patient to every staff tat nice wor! Hope is a blessing to stay on there n learn~~~
~~Coincedence** I met my secondary sch fren there after not meeting for 3yrs! but he suffering from depression!(psy problem) God bless yr recovery soon! And met back e STUPID n bossy NYP GAL hu i quarrel with before when i m a student in e ward! Plus a fren gf hahaha... so much coincedence in a day wonder is a good or bad luck! Jus really hate e NYP gal hu think so highly of herself keep bossing mi around n every nurse! Shit loz..who u think u are, u are still student i dun nid to listen to u jus because u are a EN before! arrggg so angry n irritating! On e way home...so tired tat fall alseep on bus really wish to have him by my side to lent mi lean on n rest or maybe jus hug on too but all i can is jus to dream...Jus when will 18/05 be...seems to be so long way, i m getting crazy le!! Thankz jasmine for yr console, but i think i still alive bah! Have to be strong like wat u say but even if falling apart no one able to help, got to hold on tight to myself bah! Jus missing him too much, so many stuff,happy or sad or anything to share with him, jus can't so feeling very burden down now! N i jus wish to hug on to him n rest or lean on! haiZ...pls be back soon bah!** TireD**

2006-05-15T00:30:00.000-07:00

Back again to blog...Jus wake up from naP! ToO tIreD le n jus Now also haVing Hard time falling aSleep... LosIng sLeep bah n Had a DreaM but Somehow can't rmb so shouldn't be bad bah...Hav 5 miss call of no number keep thinking hu is it, at first thought is jasmine but ended is not after much guessing think is chuan bah! arrggg so sad i shouldn't have sleep! i really missing him so much loz...so much coincedence today yet misses his call! Wat a day...Super saD~~~Haiz no choice also cant call back! Anyway One more coincedence is roger(db mate) say to link mine blog so i went to see his den to my surprise i keep refreshing e page still at my own blog so i was wondering but hu Noes he is actually using same blog skin as mi...hahha...
** Jasmine** Now u in what programme gonna to work even harder le so dun slack n study hard...Time mangement muz be well okie... For mi u better study hard or else i will sad n damn sad hor...N one more point is i think no one else suit e job of nagging u to study each time so next exam rmb to tell mi n i will get my job done! No worries wor...hehee... same for every DB GALS HOR!!
**cheexiang** Dun give up easily...make use of wrong choice to become good choice n show to others! Jia you n yr effort will be paid off! Always rmb a door close is a way to another door opening with happiness! Relationship are jus to difficult to handle even mi also fail badly in tis...haiz sad case!
So happy cuz tml morning going gym with junyi cuz i m skipping training due to afternoon so jus keep up with u ppl physical or else will be lack behind de! haha... u ppl train hard wor! n congrats to Lao Shi! His wife hav give birth to a baby BOY..God bless!!everyone got to save up n buy gift for his treat at first month!hehee... Thank lao shi for yr console, indeed i m missing chuan so much..every moment is jus him n him wat to do...he make mi too love him bah! hahaha...should be no one around for mi to bully n scold leh...Opps** wait he sad reading tis! Hao le mi gonna rest! Take care ppl!

2006-05-14T23:05:00.000-07:00

Somehow my heart seems to be raining at tis point of time! I seems so moody n tears jus flow out,sadness seems to fill up my heart! Haiz i m so Deeply in thoughts of him n him n jus him again...Really can't get to sleep at all even though i m so tired n eyes are half open! Whole mind jus thought of him, my family stuff,friends stuff n work... Haiz... Somehow i feel tat any relationship (love,frens,family or colleages) are so fargile n easily shaken by jus some changes! Why things can't always remain beautiful n isn't sweet memories e best mah...Haiz i m really confuse up! 10Yrs friendship can easily go down to drain within 1min not to say jus known close friends! PPl changes are jus too fast to catch up n make amendment le n I really dun noe, is it i dun really handle relationship well or jus tat i m fated to be always jus have good frens not close frens! Perhaps tat what god make mi out bah! e More u understand each other seems to be more dangerous den not to understand e person even better!At work Jus to be aware hu is around u! Cuz ppl are jus too jiao hua too complicated to understand! arrrgggg... ***so headache*** Jus where are u my dear! Haiz...e days seems so long n lonely without u yet i still have to carry on working...i really wish to sit down n take a good rest away from all tis handling of relationship! Family mah...jus where is mine?? I dun blame my parents nor my aunt or grandma cuz tat my fate from god! I gonna to learn to accept things e way it is...somehow i jus sick n tired le! ***away for resting*** nIte~~~

2006-05-14T22:00:00.000-07:00

Back home around 9bah.. haha last nite went to heartland mall meet landy n yvonne go cut hair, eat snow ice cum take neo print! hahah was fun n 10mins hair cut not bad wor...**Like my hair style now but abit short loz...heheee nid to style le n i suppose jasmine will be happy cuz i won't be always tie up my hair...hahha follow by meeting jasmine,gary,david,zhijie,raymond,junyi,cheexiang at hougang plaza to go play pool! Kanna laugh off by junyi at my pool skills! HalO i dun play pool de loz...den walk to have super n dinner bah! ahaha ate chicken chop,so fattening loz wat to do?? Ah ma so soo tired over e super time hahah so cute wor, n tat bad raymond keep disturbing her!arrrgggg*** wish to bash u up***hehehe...Soon to go home le...they overheard we wanna to drink n told jasmine dun allow mi.! arrggg...so sad! all was worried tat i drink! But thankz for taking care of mi when chuan not around wor...so touch***So nice to have a group of fren hang put at nite n chit chat so fun n nice! Reach her hse n after awhile of talking fall alseep cuz they dun wanna to buy drinks!! No drinks so tired so sleep hahah haiz wish can be drunk cuz i am full of stress by my family! Drunk words are den true words n no worries abt anything! Sadness or happiness all say out yr heart den feel so light loz! And i m missing him so soo much, times seems so slow each day! Haiz... wonder he is alrite mah! Tml going to ward le so excited wanna to share my joy with him also cant't haiz...hopefully is a good start n a blessful ward to work in! Change tis blogskin cuz is nice but dun mean my previous wan not nice cuz is done by evonne de! Jus tat tis suit how m i feeling now! (living in a world of nonsense) So true n real i wish to get out fast of tis world!! Gtg le nid to pack my stuff...missing everyone...take care!

2006-05-13T18:06:00.000-07:00

waa....damn it! Early in e morning kanna scolded n ask to move out! Really bad luck loz...haiz anyway tis isn't my hse too i not suppose to be here! but i got no choice cuz my family throw mi here...so envious of ppl have nice family n got a rooft under them...unlike mi! Got to suffer with tis family...I hate my family so much but well i now can support myself dun nid them to be around!I HAD ENOUGH OF IT LE...Sick n tired of quarreling n seeing yr attitude each time u bad mood! i thought abt it since he(uncle) ask mi to move out, fine i should have enough money to survive since i dun nid to paid for u anything! Hopefully can find a cheap room with nice tentant n move in to stay first... SAD SAD SAD dear not here n tis things happen...haiz wish i can hug on to him tight! but haiz he in japen! Really missing him so much! today training only a few gals but was tough cuz train with pandol! yeah yeah...nice wor... but due to heavy rain on n off we din run jus row... Went for lunch den follow by go tm for ear pierce! haha ah mao went first den by mi! Two holes so pain sia but thank yvonne lenting mi yr hand to hold! ahaha ended up jasmine n yvonne also pierce! But yvonne so scare of pain like mi! hahaha... meeting jasmine go her hse stay ...think going to cut hair bah n today xiao yvonne joining us...hahaha...so nice! Can have nice chat n maybe take photo!hmm ah mao n jasmine got scholarship...well done wor but muz treat wor...hahah jus kidding! try to save up okie! Poor xinyi so angry din get e scholarship money but gal take it easy... do better n u still can get tis year mah! Evonne go church nv ask mi along i also been wanting to go leh!!hrrppp....nvm...take care! and tml is siong ping birthday!!

2006-05-12T14:30:00.000-07:00

Back early in e monring form sentosa...had our breakfast(roti prata) at habour front! Xinyi went back last nite cuz she working e next day...sianz... Actually we also din do anything last nite... cuz was quiet late le n we jus took cab in den jus walk to palawan beach! Before tat went to e dun noe wat south point bridge at palawan...saw many small fishes in e water so beautiful n thought of redang n dear...haiz really missing him so much! den went to 7-11 to buy drinks to mix with our left over Vokak...hahah...last nite din drink much cuz they will told by my dear not to let mi drink...sianz... why!! so disappointment... Den jus slack n eat tibbits,listen to song,chatting away (school work,working life n stuff) n sleeping under e open space direct under e sky is so beautiful! Like e whole world is yrs...heheee...Ah ma so tired tat she fall asleep den we went to buy ICE CREAM hahaha... one big tub for 5 of us but din really finish up all cuz full! Hahha early in e morning eating ice cream kinda of cute bah! N some wu qi ma hei ppl swimming away in e beach n one guy tanned moonlight! Singaporean kinda of cute i suppose! hahaha... E sky was abt to rain so we went back to e bridge n found a place to sleep, we are all tired out so all jus fall asleep but not soundly cuz too many mosqitoes le...Itchy like wat sia...suppose dear reach japen le bah...raining le so move to shelter n sleep till next morning! Was woke up by jasmine n ah ma cuz ah ma wake up early n obverse e surrounding saw tat silly jasmine was kiss by so many mosqitoes so she wanna to put medcial oil for her tat was how they talk n we jus woke up!Den we went toilet den eat n home cuz they going out! Gonna to stay at home to pack my room cuz been too messy le...hmmm really missing dear so much! Think he enjoying his tour now n eating bah! Wish he is here with mi...

2006-05-12T12:31:00.000-07:00

Jus Done packing my messy room...dump away some clothes n seems like i still have many clothes loz...muz stop shopping n saving up for rainy days le bah!! haIz...still i find e room messy but of cuz better than nv done anything...tat stupid old grandma keep all old clothes so ......haiz dun noe lah! Family ppl jus sux loz...grandma shouting away worried i throw her things n tat stupid uncle giving mi attitude face! HaLo i own tis hse nothing at all n i m not taking anything from u ppl now, wanna to show faces den go else where! Hate it! Boring till death le lah....arrrgggg really feel tat somthing is missing somehow! You, yr voice, yr everything...I know is jus one week n will be over soon but now only pass nearing one day n i m like half death le bah plus missing someone is really so heartaching de and i jus hated e feeling soo much...Tat time 4days now 1week, arrggg tis drive mi nuts! Not in any mood to do anything but still nid to do something or else i will gonna be mad le.!!!! Thought of asking david out but e mood is like so sucks till i dun noe...stay online also sianz...how how how...whole mind jus u n jus u, i really can't do anything!! But jus await for u to be back**** arrggg~~~ but thankz son n jasmine,ah mao,xinyi n evonne for yr accompany n support but still is a different feeling de...Haiz tml got training think gonna to train all out cuz perhaps my last sea training or training le due to back to wards... n meeting e gals to go out at nite to pierce my ears holes...going to give dear a surprise when he is back cuz been wanting to go but was afraid so hope not much pain bah cuz i m one hu scare pain! hahaha....

2006-05-11T22:05:00.000-07:00

Finally long waiting of transfer been success cuz today is my last day at ENDO! Isn't it a happy things?? Hmmm kinda of sad too cuz e ppl there are nice n like a small family so heart warming tat wat e ward lack off! Last day yet so happening...suppose to leave early but damn it e stupid doc wan to do cases sianz... n one doc still add on cases for him to do! I wanna to spend time with dear de before he go ended up work OT! haiz meet le dear jus go his hse eat n slack awhile instead! Arrrggg...So sad! i really missing him so much loz!stupid doc... Hmmm why so happening! e second patient actually collapse after e procedure is finish! ONe min ago he is kicking n struggling so strong tat 5ppl have to hold him down but jus a half turn of body he collapse! I was so shock n stunt there! Ended up CPR! Of cuz i din do it cuz i was kinda of new n surpirse! I jus help around! N tat blur staff nurse of mine jus keep doing report n report! HaLO u suppose to take care patient not document! Get yr nursing stuff rite! Haiz so disappointed in u! Paper are jus nothing! Haiz jus what is quality of life for ppl above 60plus?? when disease attack u, when u are retarded,when u lost yr abililty to everything n lying on e death of bed dragging yr life each day n yet suffering are not known to family! Tat day is so afraid...Going off in peace isn't it better...I really sad to see tat! Spend so time at dear hse talking n checking his packing den send him to airport together with his family...haiz tears going to roll down when he went in but can't cuz his family there n they drove mi back! Reach home tears are unbearbable so jus let it flow! Really miss him so much...1 week how am i to pass it over! Went to sentosa to ton with HI5!!

2006-05-10T07:47:00.000-07:00

Happy, excited,anxious,nervous,sad,afraid or calm??? Which can express out my feelings!! hahaha...tml is my last day at ENDO!! Is it a great things mah?? I really not sure have i make e rite choice but Confirm is my choice of liking so i can't blame anyone if it was a wrong choice! SO god pls...watch over mi bah hopefully nothing happen! Hmmm...blodd test result out, everythings is fine thankz god! Haiz been down on my luck tis year so get pricked by needle during work so been going for blood test! Haiz... And also have my flu jab!!~~~ Arrggg i wanna to book appointment instead e nurse ask mi come down jab now no preapre loz...Ended up take e flu jad to endo n e staff nurse help mi! All lauging at mi cuz seeing i so brave n daring yet so scare of a jab! hahah! Anyway finally is over done with e jab now hand so pain n sore plus so tired out! Hopefully my body is strong enough to prevent any side effect like fever n flu cuz i wanna to go out on weekend! Hmmm gals train hard tml cuz e new intake will be joining u ppl! Show good explames wor... won't be joining u gals sending chuan to airport so sorry but suppose u ppl more happy cuz no tough rite n i too fierce le...sorry! Haiz...one week without him how m i going to pass over! Plus i going new wards hu to share my joy n sadness>??? Sianz n sIanz... really missing him so much! Anyway got to sleep nid more rest! Missing everyone...train hard n jia you!! Muh muh....

2006-05-09T07:18:00.000-07:00

Arrggg....Been too busy, too lazy n too tired to go online so not even to say blog! Think my blog been rotting away le..hehee...so here to update! Bascially things are e same cuz life seems to be so Rotine no much changes for e time been!
*** Friday: Work as usually n went to send dear home den go back rest!
*** SAT: NO work follow by sea training but din training much for rowing expect for running cuz too many gals long time nv attend den no choice have to teach! Spend time couck(dun noe how to spell) e boat! Went to mac to have lunch n reserve table for e guys cuz they arrive later but shit loz tis old malay ppl nag n say we selfish n complain! Come on we are not sitting cuz we are waiting e whole mAc not jus yrs n nid not jus serve u!
*** Sun: Sleep n rest at home n cOOk ai xing lunch for dear! Plus he bring Pizza from workplace to mi n we went SENTOSA to chilled awhile den go home! Nice n relaxing cuz no stress n no hungry! hahaa
***Monday: hmmm work as usually but counting down to my last few days of work in ENDO! So excited n anxious to go wards but also afraid loz...Jia you anyway!
*** Tues: Rotine work n Went training! many gals in e first place so happy but as soon as training start e ppl went down n down! Senior really disappointment! Jus where e hungry of winning in u ppl gone too!!!! Don't u all wan to win n show to others?? Haiz...e group nid u! Well for e juniors, u gals done a good job in finish e training! Ya e training is tough but think thru is not for mi but u gals, yrself cuz u are e one in e boat rowing n hungry for winning! So jia you cuz race is coming n u been training hard dun give up half way yr seat n e road of winning!! btw welcome back carita*** Hai jasmine become Huai Ren liao cuz pierce so many ear holes! Not nice lah n too ah lian le taken away yr cute look! Hmm can't train on tues den free train yrself to keep up with others! Study hor or else will nag by mi den! Anyway take care everyone... Missing u ppl alot!

2006-05-04T22:00:00.000-07:00

Working stuff as usual but taken e time to slack to come online n blog...hahaha cuz my sister not in department went off to somewhere else n busy with her stuff! hahaha...suppose to be leaving on 15may but see e calander 11may is my last day le cuz due to holiday n weekend! hahaha...seems like my wish is coming true but my sister is sad cuz mi n another staff is leaving so i think she is lack of staff le! In very bad mood wor! Can't wait to go training cuz wanna to train my physical cuz worried go ward le i will have less time to go training, den will be miss e gals le! Wonder u ppl will still think of mi mah! Haiz evonne... u got to train harder n go for race hor...jia you le wor everyone! Now Really thinking of dear, cuz seems like we have no time for each other cuz busy working n training! N he is going japen n soon army le really going to miss him more! Today training was nice cuz happy to see so many gers came! Training not too bad think at least physical is still keep fit! aiya hui xing not sure her decision loz...pls lah dun quit! Come back lah...i m missing u! aNyway happy to see u gals enjoy e training n can mix well with each other! tat a good things! Too bad i think i soon can't join u ppl le cuz i going to wards but i promise whenever i morning shift will come training with u ppl de cuz i miss u gers ma! hao le gtg to sleep le! Missing everyone! Tis jasmine pls take care n study hard too dun jus busy with bridge leader n db okie! Evonne study hard for yr work n jia you! Same for xinyi n landy!

2006-05-03T22:00:00.000-07:00

Today is our 10month anniversary le...times really pass so fast! Tat cool seems like to the both of us we actually jus started off only...hahaha...But i m really so happy to have dear cuz he been so nice n taking care of mi! especially when overcoming my family stuff! HE is always there for mi to lean on to cry n comfort mi! Really thank god for this wonderful dear! Hope it always remain e same bah hahah... We went to watch 'THE WILD' n dear make sandwich from his cafe for mi! Hmmm suppose to have soup also but too bad dear had a fall n e soup pour out! Silly dear! After tat we went to clarke quay to sit down n chit chat! So sad cuz he leaving to japen for a Week! gonna to miss him! Tml having training tat great! Taking time off 1/2 hrs cuz my department own mi de haha den can go training early! yeah!!! Finally can't wait to go off on 15may to my new ward!

2006-05-02T23:39:00.000-07:00

Life sucks at home... So tired cuz din sleep well last nite to e quarrel! Haiz really in no mood to work at all but i got no choice...Sad n moody plus still no news regarding my transfer! Hopefully it iwill be soon bah if not i think i will consider to break bond n paid money bah! Pack my stuff for training le but in my mind still planning to go training mah cuz really in no mood! But before end work, one of e sister came n told mi i m tranfer to wards! Yeah i m so happy cuz e email have been send to all sister in e hospital which mean my Sister also noe abt it! hhaa... 15may is e day of my joy...but i got to start over everythings is boring n tough but no choice cuz i choose it! Afterall i believe is always bettter than staying at here! Thanbk god! 5 pm le time to end work finally...been wasting time cuz no cases den saw dear came to look for mi cuz he is worried abt mi over my family stuff! ended up we decided to go gym instead training cuz is late le... So at least din waste time we did some cardio n train physical for hand! Not too bad lah! hahaha... Sorry to let u gals worried abt mi cuz din go training! Miss ya ppl!

2006-05-01T18:50:00.000-07:00

Labour Day also a resting day for mi! Yeah so good to be away from work n enjoy e long weekend! Went to pulah Ubin to cycle with Dragonboat fren n again only e five of us went! Sianz gals all not zaI de leh!!! hmmm...nvm overall we enjoy ourself n is a nice workout from cycling too! But butt was suffering after tat from all e bumpy n rocky road! So many up slope to go till leg can easily give up aiyo...think my cycling skills jus totally sucks~~~ hahaha... But overall still survive lah but had a small fall! hehee...***make them worried especially dear dear! SOrrY! Had a tired day den they went to had a nice cooling coconut drink! Took some lame n fun pic too haha... Upon leaving god was good manz cuz after we left den only it start to rain...:) Went to eat dinner n jasmine treat us Sting Ray cuz she craving for it! Silly gal muz save up lah! Dun always jus spend money anyhow! Anyway tml having training...reach home so tired le!! Ended up still quarrel with my family cuz lost my speaker! Sianz really sucks to be at home! How!!! Whu can really understand n help mi!

2006-04-29T22:45:00.000-07:00

So happy no nid to go work on sat! Suppose to meet them 11.30 at tampines but was late cuz overslept! Guess too tired le...have not been resting enough loz...Today dear took our gals training cuz zhijie went oversea! but was fun n quite tough cuz dear very seriously teaching all of us! Think so** Try out e new stroke! so difficult but after awhile get use le feel tat not bad cuz stroke was fast! hahaha.... haiz train le also can't row really so sad loz! Nvm gals u ppl jia you can le...mi mah be u ppl cheer leader bah! hehee*2 After tat went for lunch n go home rest so tired! Meeting dear later on cuz he staying for another team training to see how they train n i think nag n scold bah...hahaha! Not meeting jasmine n evonne to go cut hair cuz lazy! At nite going over to jasmine hse n sleep n eat tofu hahaha!

2006-04-28T19:38:00.000-07:00

hmmm...Friday blues cuz Da Yi ma came to visit mi hahah... hmmm been think ing awbt my transfer stuff how is it coming! Been nearing 2weeks still no reply getting more impatient le! sianz! how long more muz i wait... Hint my sister but she say she haven receive any news! Sobz... told mi to call e in charge so i call... hahaha to my surprise tat she told mi i will be out on 15 may if no changes! So happy! Msg n told dear dear! mEeting dear n xinyi plus e rest to go jixiang birthday! Hahaha... so happy now! At jixiang birthday not many ppl went but he borrow his uncle condo to open bbq! Nice atmosphere wor...plus no nid to help ourself all been cook n serve! So nice wor...thankz to his family members been cooking for this bunch of hungry monster of DB! N jiXiang so funny tell his mum abt xinyi! Say she is his sister cuz look alike n e mum agree too! hahaha!! Den went around to look n took some lame pic! hahaha... all of us din drink nor stay late cuz e next day hav training! Overall enjoy ourself!

2006-04-25T22:30:00.000-07:00

Working stuff as usual... Jus can't wait to go training soon! Wann to train more cuz thinking getting weaker le n miss e gals hahaha...waaa,!!! stupid doc suddenly add on so many cases den have to work overtime! Sianz i wanna to go training de!! arrrggggg....so sad loz...E stupid ah mo doc damn it loz jus becuz things dun go his way scold us! N scold us ***f--k** n as-h-le** haLO we are nurses not yr maid! WE are jus doing our job loz not there to let u scold us till like shit! But aniwae not mi is my staff nurses... haiz my blur staff nurse still can laugh n say sorrry... come on manz... we dun own him! Haiz at tat point i jus wish he die off! NExt procedure is e stupid doc again say us but no bad words lah...luckly he cancel another procedure cuz too late le! Pack up everything den back to our department! Meeting them for dinner at tampines! Haiz reach there n waited 2hrs sianz n dear din reply my msg n i reach le he keep acc his fren lucky i got u gals! hahaha... eat le dinner went back with xinyi cuz din wan dear to send mi as he got to work tml! Sianz... so tired! went online n chat with jasmine den she say long time nv see mi le n miss mi...hahah think is not use to mi not at her hse!hahah but i really also miss u wor... weekend long break shall go yr hse again hahaha! haO le wanna to sleep! nite nite n miss ya! Tml e sucking doc day got to be more alert or will kanna scold!

2006-04-24T22:10:00.000-07:00

Back to work is always so boring...sianz i still awaiting for my transfer reply! Getting more n more inpatient regarding tis matter! Jus when can i get away from there!! God pls pls pls... i really miss inpatient ward n think losing my skills due to long time nv use le... which i m most afraid off...haiz! Really sick n tired of doing e things there cuz now they won't teach mi anyhow new due to i have told them i wanna to leave! Meeting dear after work cuz today his first day at work in xinyi cafe hahaha... Think he been a pole there bah... Meet le went to eat mac cuz tis fai dear hungry le den slack there thinking where to go! Ended decided to go jurong point cuz we have nv been there together! My staff nurse drove us there n we jus shop around awhile... hahaa we saw those machine for catching bear so decided to have a try cuz we been trying at other where always no luck, sad to sad at jurong point same too! Spend 6 bucks also nv catch one! Waste money but nvm enjoy can le... ahaha dear dear got to try harder next time le wor! Lazy to walk so ended playing arcarde, so long nv play! Yeah play a game with dear n won him so he say e game boring! After tat went home cuz late le n also tired! Tml got training too yeah! muz train le too long nv train getting fatter...

2006-04-23T11:30:00.000-07:00

Reach home after sending them back... Went to hav light breakfast cuz too tired to eat! But silly dear dear hungry le... Hmmm reach my hse jus fall on e bed n sleep so tired n sleepy! Dear also sleep at my hse hahaha...Meeting to go esplanance** (dun noe how to spell) later on after waking up with e gals! 11.30 Dear wake up le say can't sleep anymore so i too wake up n acc him den decided to cook lunch! Cook lunch for dear n aunt to eat den slack at home before sending him back! Change of plan to go jasmine hse instead of tat durain place hahaa cuz raining! Hahaha go her hse can bully her...hehee.. But before tat after sending dear home, await for him to shower cuz he stink hahaha... den acc him go cut his (sHorT) hair hahaha....So tired to go meet them having a half asleep face! Hmmm first to reach jasmine hse! Took pic n wait for e others! Hahaha tell xinyi infro how to come but was miscommunication n she alight wrong stop hahaha... Nvm all here le n we start taking photo! N a shoot for HI5 n powerpuff gal haha...argg arrgggg....sTupid xinyi snatch with mi number 5! AH ma(landy) so like to take pic acting funny faces haha... anyway enjoy alot with u gals! take care cuz time to go back tml working! sianz!!

2006-04-22T21:10:00.000-07:00

Soo so excited cuz going to look for xinyi n give her birthday suprised! Yeah...meeting at my place den drive my uncle car there by dear cuz all budget wanna to save money! Reach her place n slack awhile before go up her place but call her she was still outside eating !waa... we so sad cuz we are already getting ready le no choice got to go find her at tiong since is walking distance!!Before we left we plan to take a pic of her flat n show her but ended up we got e wrong address n so silly took pic at e wrong hse too! hahaha! lame!! Reach there all take turns to call her jus to distract her attention den evonne tap on her n surprise her! Cute face expression on her! funny loz... N we sing birthday son for her using argar agar as birthday cake for her! Make by mi!
Now follow by eating time...brought 2meals n 20pcs nugget! CooLz really getting fat le keep eating! hahaha... Reach xinyi hse still have dessert for cheesecake! yUmmY yUmmy~~ hehee... N follow by VokaK~ again say i first drunk! so bad leh u aLll! But we was having so much fun taking funny pic n giving love bite! Acting stupid n my poor dear only play com to pass time! heehee... Went playground to chat n listen song n follow on morning den send them home!! Thinking so much where to go in e afternoon when we wake up! hahaha...

2006-04-21T06:52:00.000-07:00

Hmmm...been busy n lazy to blog abt e past few days hahaha... As usually went to work n on a sat is to slack day but suddenly got one case! By e stupid doc, so worry he will drag till make mi work overtime cuz i wanna to go training!! Wanna to row! Been so long since i haven get to row think i rotting le..thank manz he done it fast n i manage to finish on time n go training! YEah yeah~~~ n i brought along 2 eggs cuz wanna to sAbo xinyi! Reach there den find out tat xinyi is sick so can't row, she so sad jus like mi tat time but no choice lah sick are to stay on shore~~ hahaha....So nice n happy can row manz... today training was good but haiz think due to too long nv been rowing, physical also sucks le n stroke also...sad sad~ nvm got to buck up!! Jia you lo... Gals attendance again so little ppl haiz why! Jus wat is happening manz...Kao!! Gals race coming u all got to training hard n jia you le! Training time be more serious loz... NOw fun time le...xinyi sleeping go disturb her n sing birthday song! DeN follow by hehehe... Eggs n flour for her! CooL i jus throw e eggs in her shirt n give it a hard punch! Ouch~~ hahaha... Sorry but tat was fun! N sherly push her face on to e cake! Aiyoo...she so fed up n started to chase us around taking revenge!haha...n poor jasmine muz be heart ache cuz xinyi too engross in playing jus throw e flour on her camera! Sorry my fault!!!! Finally went to eat n go home change cuz got to go chuan frn birthday n follow by our night surprise for xinyi!! YEah yeah...

2006-04-18T22:31:00.000-07:00

Hmmm...jus return from Redang trip last nite! The trip was fun n cool but jus too short! HAiz but anyway i suppose good n happy things dun last long cuz it always ended so fast n sweet....First day reach excited for first snoking trip but raining so was cancel!! arrggg...so angry but e second day was such a nice n sunny day! Afterall still have to THank god for e wonderful weather!! I really enjoy myself alot n so new experience for snokling... is so cool~~~ and keep taking pictures, --> acting cute, funny n punk haha!! But e best is under e sea took tat beautiful~~~ Water so clear so nice to swim n stay in till dun wish to leave! haiz... times pass so fast!! Had a good sun burn instead of tanned hahaha cuz e weather jus too strong! haha but tat nice same for e night view too! E next day planned to wake up early n see sun rise but ended up see moon cuz raining soon...so went back to e room n sleep hahaa... So fast have to return home le sianz... on e way back in e bus took so lame pic n fighting pic hahaha... finally reach home But quarrel with family den ran out to stay with jasmine...haiz need to trouble her...but really thankz god for she been there if not i will be random in e streets le... MUh muh love u so much! THankz wor...sianz of my family! How... god pls...

2006-04-14T21:00:00.000-07:00

E drinks party continue till early morining around 6! hahaha Brought e drinks le den went MAC!! Buy 29pcs nuggets n 2 ham burger to eat...think e 4 of us going to be fat for e night! hahaha... and indeed we finish it all with e drinks...So nice of jasmine, letting mi lean on her tight n take care all of us! Our ah ma (landy) drunk le so sleeping follow by mi den evonne! Silly gal evonne... think she have too much stress in her till she let out n tears are so uncontrol at tat point of time... Come on i will always treasure u tis fren n tat include jasmine, landy n not forgetting abt xinyi! Cuz u gals rock my life of fun! hahahah...anything feel sad can always find mi or i can always lent u my shoulders jus like tat sweetie jasmine! hahha! Ah ma(landy) Got to go off early so muz send us back before leaving! Thankz wor.! HAd alot of fun n new experience of been drunk n start crazy things hahha...oH ya thankz yr mum for everything too n u sweetie jasmine! Go rest wor last nite lent us bed n u sleep on chair! silly!! Hao lah anyway take care gals n i shall be on my way to rednag trip le... got to enjoy with my dear le...hahha...see ya ppl when i m back! No chesse cake so sad cuz xinyi can't meet mi nvm shall eat more when i m back! REally miss ya gals! muh muh...

2006-04-13T05:15:00.000-07:00

Today work OT den go training...stupid doc do so slow! 2 hrs procedure on a patient so is painful loz, and thankz god e patient so coperrative nv struggle much yet still kanna scold by doc! Stupid stupid doc!! Sianz think getting fat le!! Wait will also slack down soon cuz nv train long!! Haiz ***worried*** hmmm meeting dear for dinner den follow on e gals... Going jasmine hse to have fun cum i think bully her hahaha... i not so bad! Haiz again Xinyi can't join us so sad!! Last min family got problem! Hope is over bah!!! Again jus e 4 of us! Meet le went buy drinks (beer) n food!! hahaha reach her hse eat le thought watch (Saw 2) but think too boring so cancel n play some lame games with Drinks... Drink finish le not enough den went down to buy...hahaha... more fun on e way!!! but poor dear gonna to miss mi cuz i with e gals nv call him... but i really miss him alot!! muh muh

2006-04-12T23:08:00.000-07:00

Hmmm... been to lazy to blog tis few days! haha can't really rmb much abt wat have been happening... End le work meet dear go queensway shopping centre for a walk cuz wan to buy shorts for e redang trip! Yeah... Hmmm ended tis silly dear brought a surf short too... Nice short so we decided to buy for his fren whose birthday coming! aIyo yo... This month alot of ppl birthday loz almost every weekend got to go celebrate for them n buy gift!! hahaha... And we carry on shopping for Cheesiang birthday gift too! Haiz haven buy for adreline birthday yet!! Hmmm... brought a short n Shirt for myself! Can't resists to e Shirt beauty! Hahaha... after went home to pack my stuff for e trip cuz tml going to ton with e gals... hahaha....

2006-04-08T12:00:00.000-07:00

So tired n sleepy...Sat is to slack at work cuz no cases but ended got two cases n only left mi n another staff in e department cuz my sister n another staff went meeting e whole half day...wat is this manz leaving us alone...Haiz nearing 12 still waiting for e patient so have to work OT again! OT for 1/2 hrs den change leave ard 12.40 haiz thought rush to training but haiz seeing e time so change of mind went home to sleep bah... dear came look for mi den pack my stuff cuz plan to ton outside...den next day going sentosa sianz loz gal all not on de! Hmmm try on e clothes i brought but can't wear e pant loz sianz think nid to go change but not sure can or not cuz i took L size n tat is wat they have le..actually can wear but e tight area wear le too tight so can't~!! HAiz no choice loz,,,monday go change! Hope hav if not den waste money le...Follow on went to alvin hse! Happy birthday wor 21 le... Den drink there n alvin drunk loz...nvm pw there to take care of him! Cutting cake time become kissing session loz all e couple kiss especially pw n alvin! So cute e two! hahaha... so much fun n join!!next to botak chalet n we took cab cuz head heavy n late le... Ton over n sleep till next day!!

2006-04-07T22:15:00.000-07:00

Start of e day so busy...e patient was held up due to tat stupid doctor call n say urgent case! Done so many times scope for e patient due to patient Bleeding inside! Do scope to suck out e blood n still give blood to patient! Waste of effort! After everything see e patient so pale really feel so sad for him... hmmm e rest of e day case finish ard 2 den slack n do nothing till 6!! Waste of my time...haha lunch time call dear to buy desert for mi n my staff cuz all craving for it plus mr nice guy of e day (kelvin) willing to drive my dear... thankz wor...end work le travel down to find dear n eat with his grandparent near toa payoh! den we went to central to walk plan to buy somthing for his fren birthday but ended saw a mickey pants not bad n nice... so brought a t-shirt n pant for 20 bucks... nv try on e size jus buy...hahaha... reach home rest cuz my staff nurse change shift with mi den i work 8-12 tml so happy cuz can go training... wanna to row manz...

2006-04-05T12:00:00.000-07:00

Work as usual...but is 9-6 sianz... hate tis time cuz if no case den really seems to be dragging e time to end work...bored!! Today day is for a shit doc hu i have been complaining beside jus e ang moh! HE Done a input of Feeding tube for 2 patient who is retarded! one of thEm will hit us n dun wanna to open his mouth while e other open e mouth so big but struggle n shout like hell...i really see them so pitiful n e patient whose mouth open so big strength very big nid 3 ppl to hold her down yet she still yelling away despite e scope is in her mouth! E stupid doc got so anrgy n use force to turn her head n hold her down! Shit loz can't u understand she in pain n can't express out herself, u dun b patient still get fed up n throw things n angry! Next time u be patient sure get it back from nurses! Btw think he is crazy loz... he do scope check for himself damn it god is there ppl like him crazY!! Anyway he got no care for patient, he jus wanna his job done! HATE HIM! HAiz... kannz nag n nag by staff cuz saying mi n another dreaming but we are not jus tat we not use to be in tat doc room!! N she jus nag den e other guy wanna to quit becuz of her yet she turn her words n say he not bad can improve! Shit loz... haiz i also can't wait to be transfer out... Hmmm one of e staff nurse treat mi one whole block of chocolate so nice!! YEah... but kanna nag by bf can't eat finish cuz not healthy wait sick...haiz jus dun wanna to be nagged at n really feel sux to be nag... went home too tired to even bath jus sleep on my bed till 10 plus... n silly bf keep calling mi wake up i jus too tired... yeah tml training but again speachless... nowadays i seems to be getting further n further to go training jus wat is happening.... haiz... anyway gals jia you...miss ya all... Nite

2006-04-04T23:30:00.000-07:00

Today again busy at work so happy cuz dun wanna like dragging e time tp wait to go training... So tired cuz e journey itself to training already tired out myself le...hahaha no choice cuz i choose to go de~~ Traveling sux but reach there i jus wanna to have a good workout with e rest of e gals cuz seeing them train so hard i really feel movitvated too...hahaha...But train halfway One of e gal is sick, having difficuites in breathing n having illision!! Need to help lao shi take her to CGH!! Poor gal, having fever still training n dun noe she is sick....think she may nid to be abmitted!! Pray hard for her recovery cuz can see lao shi very worry n upset! Haiz again din train much, sianz... think tis week n last week din get to train much really feel so upset!! Spend e time at CGH waiting n finally dear came with cheese cake bake by RUBY!! SO sweet of her... can't wait to eat hahaha... it was so nice!! Thank alot... N so nice till e juniors can't wait to eat after training so kanna scolded by my naggy bf...poor gals...anyway gals really take care n train well... mi so sad can't row with u ppl anymore but will jia you for u ppl de... Drink more water n maintain yr health... God bless everyone health to be good n fit!! **PRAYING*** nite nite...

2006-04-03T22:50:00.000-07:00

hmmm... sunday too tired to blog le... haha!! Today is mi n dear 9month anniversary! But today working 9-6 den so busy till lunch also settle it fast n continue working! Thought can end work early den go out but got to work OT for an hour! Let tat blur n silly dear waiting outside my department for mi! This few days have alot of case n time pass very soon so good!! But e 'aunties' in my department have been complaining n nagging hahaha... lazy bum~~ Anyway we went to Anchor point to eat... eat rice n Pizza!! Quite special pizza but nice cuz is made on e spot!! Yummy yummy*** Follow on we went to buy sport bra, haiz again spend money...going to be broke soon le nid to save up!! And tat sweet dear brought mi a skirt which i have been wanting...thankz you so much dear dear!! LOve u!!! hmmm Tml having training so din went out till late but now training to mi is like... (speachless) Jus really wonder where e life i use to lead as a student so happy yet now.... i jus hope to got transfer out n get back to my patient life care! Tat will be great... pray hard** -_-!!

2006-04-01T20:35:00.000-08:00

Yeah today is my off sat! So happy cuz meeting Jasmine,Landy,Xinyi n evonne for early running!! I ask them to acc mi cuz i wanna to keep fit n plus so long nv train le think getting fatter hahaha... Really thankz alot to u gals despite e tough training tat have tired out yr bones hehee u all still acc mi...**so touch** Muh muh...love u gals manz! Who noes we have run for roughly 8km wor...haha think running with them dun feel tired at all!! Den follow on rowing... At nite went to eng tong birthday chalet!! Poor him again always kanna bully n they make him so drunk... Maybe wat ppl say is rite... 'jiu ho tu zhen yan' he came in a keep talking abt db stuff!! n see him really regret wat he have done...But we jus laugh it off cuz he is drunk but wat he say of cuz we understand!! Eng tong nvm now jia you n train hard!! Come back stronger to prove others!! And i got abit piss off cuz all jus wanna to play their own game den really feel so bored like tis i rather spend time at home sleeping... finally get to play some game but was interruped by eng tong... took cab home n have a good sleep...

2006-03-31T20:50:00.000-08:00

Yeah today slept longer cuz start work at 8!! but still very tired ahahaa...Went to work n cases have alot but only one nice doc doing so abit slack n slack but haiz again nid to go do e procedure at xray with e stupid doc!!! E doc so angry cuz e first scope he use seems to be spoil den have to change but hu noe he so hurry den change le e next scope e image is blur blur de so ended scolding us n shouting!! SHit loz we are nurse leh not maid n u can't do e procedure well dun blame us nor e object say yr own skills loz... N my preceptor actually wanted to teach mi things regarding e skills but suddenly she ask mi...how i find work n wat is my decision!! Say 3 months coming up n have i make a decision weather to stay or go wards! I told her i prefer wards n she say fine den she won't bother to waste her time teaching mi things anymore...Den she go tells others staff dun bother to teach mi...haiz so bad loz as long as i m there they should teach mi mah!! At a moment i m in a confuse mind, i know my decision is confirm to leave but 3month with them sure have feeling de mah...tat why...haiz..Now i know my transfer is agree le jus waiting for mi to say out really thankz god!! Now pray for a good ward hope is a male surgical ward!! Pls pls... hahaha think i will ask only after my trip to redang cuz dun wanna any changes now... end work not meeting dear cuz he nid to stay at home for dinner, really miss him alot!! wanna to hug him hahaha... yeah tml no nid to work!! Meeting them early go running really think i getting fat le nid to train more to improve myself n maintain manz... hope e train is tough manz! Can't wait for it!! N going to eng tong chalet tml...think will have a late nite!! REally miss e gals alot wanna to train with them ahahaha... see ya ppl tml n my dear dear...

2006-03-30T23:25:00.000-08:00

Today working 8-5 cuz having training... got to pull myself up from bed to go work! Really feel tired!!! Reach work le thought got less case but e doc doing is very slow cuz he consider new but ended up e list get longer n longer plus we dun hav enough staff to rotate for our break! So wait till finish e case den go for a short break follow by 4 more serious case to be done at e x-ray by 2 stupid, rude,and bull shit doctor! SO busy day but love it cuz not waiting for time to pass slowly infact it jus go pass fast...But e first case took so long to do(2hrs) think if i m e patient i also suffering lah n e doc jus keep giving drugs to carry on e procedure!! Haiz poor patient suffering in pain!! E 3rd case was ang mo doc do he so inpatient cuz waiting for e 1st doc to done his two case finish before he can do his so losing his temper!! Come den say n nag n nag den worse e radiographer which suppose to take x-ray for patient during e procedure lost cuz after office hour le not sure who working OT so ended up we get e scolding...leading to bad day loz...Sobzz...told muz work OT!! haiz love to work OT cuz more paid but today got TRAINING le...got to miss it so sad!!finally time to go home, meeting dear for dinner so happy thought can't meet him le cuz so late but he travel down to meet mi... so sweet of him!!! Heard from evonne tat today e training was great! Jealous loz*** cuz think i getting fatter le so long din train for a tough wan! Haiz...think muz really go for self train le... n myabe i should dun go training le cuz i graduate le den like no point going plus now hav hui xing to lead them, i go there extra!! hahaha anyway training was Tough for them today but e gals bite thru n so united!! Feel happy n proud to hear tat from her n e others...can see they enjoying training n going thru e toughness of training together will make them grow stronger next time!! More bonding tat good... Nid a good rest cuz very tired due to working n da yi ma...hahaah...gals...keep up e good work wor... Jia you!!

2006-03-29T22:22:00.000-08:00

Hmmm..everyday got to wake up go work feel so boring loz... always think tat no case den will be very bored hoping got more cases to last till my work end haha...but tat will tired out e 'aunties in my department'...Took a shower at my workplace cuz meeting dear den go buy tat blur eng tong birthday gift which is on coming sat~~~Haiz..got to spend money again! and we went to take neo print! Went to bugis village to shop around den can't decided wat to buy ended buying him a t-shirt which we think is nice...n brought red bean bread very nice to eat hahaha, almost everytime went bugis sure to buy n eat!! Hahaha...follow on go for NEO PRINT hahaha... Den go dinner le go home cuz tml working n yeah got training!!!Also feel tired le...wanna to rest!! Pack my stuff for tml training...can't wait to go...hahaha

2006-03-28T06:05:00.000-08:00

hmmm...today early wake up can see my silly dear! HE come down to look for mi cuz of some reason dun talk abt it le haha... but very happy to have him send mi go work n talking to him! Hai time to start work le so sianz... dun wish to go but no choice! Everyday jus have to force myself to go n do my best! Today i told one staf nurse i wanna to transfer soon le den she say do wat i think i suppose to do dun later regret! I really think is true cuz no point everyday dragging myself to work when i can enjoy myself more in wards!!! Really can't wait for april to come cuz i wanna to ask for transfer! N i m firm in my decision!!! God pls grant mi my wish... And today really got scare manz cuz my staff say e day i book for my leave maybe can't grant cuz crush with other staff nurse leave!! SHit loz i book my trip le but they say can in e end cuz is my staff overlook din inform mi!! Lucky loz... but even ask mi come back i will still take Mc cuz wanna to enjoy myself with dear at REDNAG!! YEah really can't wait to go~~ Today have two procedure done in x-ray with a rude 'ang mo doc' cannot do e procedure well blame us if not e machine why not say his own skills sux n troublesome...hahaha...Hate working with him...still prefer doc to be humble!! Finally can go training le but reach le so late went for 2.4 run den rest thought still training but lao shi say stop le...haiz sad loz but also tired n nv train much loz think i going to be weak le... maybe hav to go gym myself le! Train myself to maintain! If not how to push e juniors... Today attendance improve...can see more gals coming so happy! Jia you wor... Eat dinner with them n took train with xin yi n dear home... so tired! Wanna to rest le... can't wait for thursday training!!

2006-03-27T05:21:00.000-08:00

yawn~~~ Really so tired to wake up n go work!Had a baddream of myself getting transfer but was rejected...think really stress on getting transfer le... Haiz but each day got to force myself wake up to go work which i dun enjoy at all...how!! soon is coming 3 months le which is my confirmation time really can't wait to ask for transfer! HAiz Really hope my prayer will come true!!! Today at work busy till around 4plus den slack till 6 before can go work sianz sianz sianz... End le work go home cuz no training n not meeting dear more sianz...he got to acc his fren cuz fren birthday really miss him! According to him, he think tat he done well for e paper, finally his stress is over le now he can enjoy till june...GO ARMY!! haha.... but mi gonna to miss him even more le... SObzzzz... Reach home went to sleep so tired! Haiz dear still not home can't chat with him so sad loz...! IS nearing 10 le.. wana to rest early cuz tml have training yeah! Muz train hard cuz so long din train le plus keep eating thinking i getting fatter le... haiz...Train Hard! TMl hope to see more gals coming n train as a team! Jia you wor... Nite

2006-03-26T23:40:00.000-08:00

Wake up early in e morning having difficult in sleeping cuz keep coughing..haha! Went to make breakfast for my family n my dear! To give him energy to study, cuz one more day of stress for him before exam! Muz jia you for him... and also teach him awhile hahaah~~ Time to meet landy le! going sentosa with her, evonne n jasmine~~ Reach there all of us hope for sun cuz all plan for a suntanned hahaha~~ Den tat silly jasmine ask mi go hide under e shade...diaoz~~ how can sun tanned without mi, haha dun care jus went along! And alot of fun playing, and eating too hahaha... think we together will get fat cuz one moment wan to eat this next moment tat food...hahaha hmmm... first time been buried under e sand so tickelish and heavy till can't breath wor hahaha... den started taking lame n funny pics...haha so funny loz... our face so much sand~~ haha... time to go back le... chit chat all e way till hougang station! Next time we shall go again manz... Follow by tat went to eat at aunt place den go find dear n give him test before go home... so tired!