Life seems so meaningless to mi now...watever i do my mind is in deep thoughts of him n jus him!! Everythings, everyplace tat i went seems to have him with mi before yet now i hav to be alone by myself i really feel very lonely n scare! Tears keep flowing out i can't control it anymore seems like emotional have totally control over my life n sadness fill in ever since he left mi to go army! I feel totally useless Yet i, no we got no choice! 2years down e road is gonna to be e same no changes can be make i got to learn to buck up n get on to life by myself! Ppl have been saying all guys have to go thru tis n is jus part n parcel of life! Telling mi to stop crying, get a life for myself dun dependent on him cuz without him e earth still turns life still carry on but to mi i m losing everything i have even if e earth still turns my heart seems to be stop, my life ends... I totally feel tat life is pointless n lonely to carry on i have to get use to him not by my side really feels sucks n hell! Sadness, happiness,joy,tired n sick i can't even have him to be by my side for a simple lean on to rest! Arrrggg...jus where is life without him manz...E pain in my heart hurts alot n alot n so unbearable! Not jus normal pain really can't explain out! all I really wish to take it off mi i really... yet i can't give up! Our Promise not been fufill yet, we got so much things left to be done(happiness) so i told myself i got to wait for him! Now crying out only den i feel better but i can't carry on like tis cuz eyes so swollen n tired who can tell mi how mah, stop e pain in mi!!!
Yesterday he told mi he is feeling sick n morning time i heard from his voice he really seems to be sick...so much of worries yet i can't be there for him i feel useless! I really wan to be by his side looking after him! Training inside so much tough n weather so hot seeing him suffer my heart aches even more...arrrgggg... God pls pls pls...pls stop e pain in mi, pls watch over him to be fine n healthy, pls allow time to pass over soon each day den 2yrs so i can see him n have him back my side n allow mi to overcome any problem without him by my side! pls do so...ahmen!
** Thank (Jasmine, landy,xinyi,ruby,sabrina,yvonne, david,gary,zhijie,cheesiang,louis and raymond) for acc mi to help mi celebrate my 19th birthday! Thankz alot for everything i really appreciate it! Jasmine thanks for lending mi lean on, ever since chuan went in i hav no one to lean on le, i really have a nice sleep! Sorry i try my best le to keep tears yet i can't but like wat u say time will slove everything! I really hope so n pls wish it do so!! Lonely mi thank god for u ppl acc mi...or else life will be even worse!
>JOYCE<
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Life seems so meaningless to mi now...watever i do my mind is in deep thoughts of him n jus him!! Everythings, everyplace tat i went seems to have him with mi before yet now i hav to be alone by myself i really feel very lonely n scare! Tears keep flowing out i can't control it anymore seems like emotional have totally control over my life n sadness fill in ever since he left mi to go army! I feel totally useless Yet i, no we got no choice! 2years down e road is gonna to be e same no changes can be make i got to learn to buck up n get on to life by myself! Ppl have been saying all guys have to go thru tis n is jus part n parcel of life! Telling mi to stop crying, get a life for myself dun dependent on him cuz without him e earth still turns life still carry on but to mi i m losing everything i have even if e earth still turns my heart seems to be stop, my life ends... I totally feel tat life is pointless n lonely to carry on i have to get use to him not by my side really feels sucks n hell! Sadness, happiness,joy,tired n sick i can't even have him to be by my side for a simple lean on to rest! Arrrggg...jus where is life without him manz...E pain in my heart hurts alot n alot n so unbearable! Not jus normal pain really can't explain out! all I really wish to take it off mi i really... yet i can't give up! Our Promise not been fufill yet, we got so much things left to be done(happiness) so i told myself i got to wait for him! Now crying out only den i feel better but i can't carry on like tis cuz eyes so swollen n tired who can tell mi how mah, stop e pain in mi!!!
Yesterday he told mi he is feeling sick n morning time i heard from his voice he really seems to be sick...so much of worries yet i can't be there for him i feel useless! I really wan to be by his side looking after him! Training inside so much tough n weather so hot seeing him suffer my heart aches even more...arrrgggg... God pls pls pls...pls stop e pain in mi, pls watch over him to be fine n healthy, pls allow time to pass over soon each day den 2yrs so i can see him n have him back my side n allow mi to overcome any problem without him by my side! pls do so...ahmen!
** Thank (Jasmine, landy,xinyi,ruby,sabrina,yvonne, david,gary,zhijie,cheesiang,louis and raymond) for acc mi to help mi celebrate my 19th birthday! Thankz alot for everything i really appreciate it! Jasmine thanks for lending mi lean on, ever since chuan went in i hav no one to lean on le, i really have a nice sleep! Sorry i try my best le to keep tears yet i can't but like wat u say time will slove everything! I really hope so n pls wish it do so!! Lonely mi thank god for u ppl acc mi...or else life will be even worse!